Time to say farewell to Healing Well Prostate Cancer forum....very bittersweet to me

I have been posting as a regular here since October of 2008, seems so long ago, something like 5 years and 7 months.

Wouldn't know where to start, so much to be thankful for, some many people to be thankful to, rather not name names, because I would surely forget a dear friend or two from my poor memory.

I have enjoyed meeting some of you in person, and hundreds here I have tried to help to the best of my limited abilities over the years.  And I have received so very much more in return, far more than my many thousands of out going posts.  It's always been a give and take relationship.

I feel I no longer have anything new to offer in the way of help.  There are so many better qualified posters on the nitty gritty and nuances pertaining to PC, then myself.

If I am tired of my own stories, then I know others here are equally tired.

I will be dealing with my own twisted PC journey for the rest of my life, along with the disabilities that I have picked up along the way in the name of PC treatment, that's not going to change.

I am trying to find other interests in life to take the place of being here.  Got involved in several non-PC, non-Medical forums.  May get back into my writing career at some point.

Life is truly short, and I simply don't want to be obsessed thinking about PC, either my own, or others, it wears me down mentally and emotionally, especially after all these years.

I am not upset at anyone, no one is hinting for me to leave, doing this of my own freewill.  For those that care to follow up with me, now or in the future, just write down my listed e-mail address here.  Only one I have used in 19 years, feel free to write if you want to know what is currently going on.

I know I leave this place in good hands with so many capable people.  I am removing my Windows 8 Tile to Healing Well so I will be less inclined to even lurk.

It's been a good run, and I do not regret for one second, the countless hours I have spent here, both giving and receiving.  Still the best place for PC peer to peer info on the net.

Peter Waite:  you are the master, you have the best of the best, and I will always be thankful to you, your efforts, and your vision.

And thanks to the long line of moderators I have known over the years too.  You all do great at a non-paying and mostly thankless job.  Been thankful that HW PC has been generally peaceful the past year or so, that's a good thing.

Before in the past, I would take breaks from here, many of us have done this, but its my intention (not going to swear to it) but to close out this portion of my life and move on with whatever is left.

I will be checking here until Friday, June 20th, to respond to any departing friends, then that will be that.  Will not be lurking after that.

My best to everyone here that I have known over the past 5 plus years, you have all been a big help, and I wish all of you to have zero PSA, full erect you-know-what's, and dry pants.  Wish most of all that PC could be eradicated from the face of the earth.  Still touches too many of us, and takes away the lives of way too many men.

May God bless you and keep you safe,

David in SC, aka Purgatory

It is your choice. As we all know here, whatever choice we make is for the best. FWIW, your story has helped me, as much as it hurts to watch. I hope for nothing but the best for you. Good Luck!

Hi David I do understand your decision. I will keep in touch via e-mail. Take care my friend.

love and hugs
Loretta

Just wishing you the best. I would advise just taking a break for a while - it's probably healthy for everyone to take a break from forums once in a while. I hope that you drop in from time to time to give advice, tell us how you're doing or just to say "hello".

Thanks to all those above this post. Please feel free to e-mail anytime, sometimes I have my Skype on, I have to admit (and many here know this first hand - I am a real son of a gun to ever reach on the phone/just not a big phone person.

It's possible I may have some gastro results before I check out on June 20th, if so, I will amend this thread so that know one is hanging in the air about the drastic weight loss dilemma,

I thought the drop was lessening, it did for a couple of days, now its picking up speed again. Starting to really be bothered by the total absence of hunger or appetite, its just not a natural feeling. Seems like the only time I feel ok (internally), is when I don't eat at all. But I know that is not the correct answer or solution. There has to be a reason, there has to be a solution, can't keep going downhill like this.

Just tonight, we cancelled our 7 day cruise. Too many complications going on at that time, and in my current state of health, don't think I could physically handle it. We may re-plan a similar cruise in February of next year. We still have a west coast mega wedding to deal with in October, one that I will probably not be able to attend.

D.

142, thanks. you have been a good friend here, and a great mod as well.

David,
Sorry to read that you'll be leaving. I am glad to see your PSA is on the decline, hopefully that continues. Hope you might want to check back at least once in a blue moon to let everyone know how you're doing,and if your team of doctors can figure out what is going on. Otherwise it's kind of weird to have written you so many times with advice or concern only to see you vanish.

Take care my friend.

Diane, thanks, you been a good friend to me as well. I understand your side too, sometimes everyone gets weary of those of us, including you, that have such long lists of "can't's" Doesn't mean we are being negative, just being honest with out situations. I worry less about what I can't do, and what I can currently do. The list changes every day, less "can" and more "can't". Take care, my friend

Squirm, feel free to e-mail if you wish. While nothing is impossible, I am not planning at this point of returning ever. But I am cautious to say never to anything in life, things do change.

Wishing you well. . . And hoping you get to take that cruise.

David
God Bless you. And thanks for being here for us. I find myself addicted to this site, both for help and to help if I can. I just cancelled a cruise down the Danube since I've started ADT and SRT and don't want to take a chance with SEs impacting my enjoyment. I'm hoping to kill the remaining PCa once and for all. If I do, I'll happily delete this site as well.
Take care!
Bob pt3b gl9

David,

I tip my hat to you. Thanks for all the support you have shown to me and to everyone here on HW. I wish you the best in your pursuits of health and happiness. You are a man among men.

-Gedman

David,

Well, that's unexpected, but you really must do what is best for you. Can't imagine anyone wouldn't understand that.

Just been here two years, but I realize that any "remission" is only as good as the next psa test, so I try to keep up with the forum to stay up with current science just "in case". I never "got tired" of your posts, just was not capable of adding to the discussion.

This forum seems to be the one best place for info--even better than the doctors in many cases. You have added so much to the knowledge base here, and all here (and future visitors) owe you a debt. Please take care, and we all wish you the best.

Robert

David,
To thine own self be true!

Wish we could have hooked up last year when I was in Charleston but never say never.

I am one of the many here that read your posts the first day I found Healing Well. You have always been one of the first to welcome newbies and given encouragement to others even though your battle was so much greater than ours.

I wish you the best in the future and pray your doctors find some answers for you.

Keep the Faith my friend,

Bill from Florida (born in SC)