JPS1 said...
Thanks everyone. I feel like I just got dealt a death sentence. Hard to focus on anything right now....
Still need to get the scans. Hoping those comeback ok and don’t further destroy any hope that I have....Just really down right now. The unknown factor about the future is really getting to me.
Like Michael, I was kind of worried when my PSA jumped up and crushed when I got the phone call with the biopsy results. Sleeping was difficult, GI tract was out of whack, and generally wondering how my retirement plans 1 month into them could get so screwed up so bad. It is normal to feel crushed and hopeless but it will get better.
My meeting with the urologist was a couple of weeks after biopsy, told to bring my wife, and appointment was scheduled at 4;30pm so it could last as long as needed to answer all questions. Once that was over and the followup scans done, I started the uphill climb evaluating treatment options with doctors and felt the calmest I had felt in a long time the morning of surgery when I was actually doing something about
it.
After I had been down as low as I thought I could go, I got the expert second opinion results from the surgery pathology which said: Not so fast dude, it is a little worse on second look, not time to relax quite yet. My second round of getting my spirits dampened (polite way of saying freaking out again). This time getting knocked down and getting up again went much faster as I was doing something about
it again.
Summary: Took about
a year to get over this adventure (99%) once I had a few non detectable PSA's behind me. After I got past this, Covid hit and my retirement plans took another hit. Life goes on and I am just a little older now in my retirement. The old quote "I cried because I had no shoes until I met a man who had no feet." comes to mind. Lot worse things to be going through than prostate cancer so hang in there.