Greetings, David. I have confidence you will get that zero that we all wish for. One other reason that I really like my doc - he says prostate cancer is enough to deal with without the anxiety of waiting on a blood test. I go in, they draw the blood, and 20 minutes later I have the results. Only have to see him every other time but still get the blood work every 90 days. I am blessed to have him and his partners as my doc's and am grateful for their sensitivity.
David, you and I have exchanged messages several times over these past months and I'm grateful for all that you do to stay active and share your experiences on this board. You have definitely helped me along the way. While I have a great wife, loving children and grandchildren, good friends and co-workers, and probably most importantly an abiding and enduring faith, I still get down and in something of a funk from time to time. I think this disease - maybe any disease - does that to us. I think prostate cancer may be worse than some others because of the sexuality and "manhood" issues that get tied up in our recovery. Even when things are going well like it seems to be for both of us, there are still issues that you have to work around. It is only natural to get down every once in awhile. Then you throw in being without a job for an extended period while you are fighting this disease and it multiplies the issues you are dealing with. As much as we don't like it, I think it's only natural to have days when you think about it more than others.
Hang in there, my friend. Don't let it get you down. You are a winner and a survivor. It's okay to get down sometimes but get right back up and knock this disease down where it belongs. I know you won't let it get the best of you. Keep us posted on how things go. David