man, there's a lotta love and support in this thread and i really appreciate it. on lupron i got fatter than i have ever been but i ate terribly and huge amounts so i can't blame the drug. i ate stuff that i had never tried before but always wondered about
like nutella and mountain mike's all you can eat pizza
.
it wasn't fun after awhile and staying fat really takes vigilance and work. it's like having a full-time job with a boss that you hate (i'm self employed and i love me ).
what really scared me is knowing that one day i might have to go back on lupron. i know if that occurs it might not be the cancer that kills me. so my plan was to get healthy and strong and have a diet in place to fall back on. and also to get back into the habit of eating healthy (something i am usually good about) and to eat less (not so good about). i can usually do this on my own but i decided to try weigh***chers because i want to eat the foods that i like and prepare but i wanted accountability. what i found is that i eat just about the same things as usual but don't splurge as often. i now eat more fruits and vegetables. i am also consciously cutting back on red meat and dairy products.
it really hasn't been that hard for me: the fear of change was much less than the misery of staying the same. i look at weight loss and weight maintenance as two separate goals, and i'm sure the latter will be the real challenge for me. but the way i see it today is if i don't take care of myself i am choosing death, and i have too many things to live for.
thanks again.
ed