Thanks for all the posts! It has helped me a lot knowing people are there who care. I appreciate that a lot.
Yesterday I was finally able to convince my dad to go in the hospital. His Oncologist has convinced him to go on hospice. Hopefully to a nearby care home. I don't feel capable of caring for my dad in his current state. I do feel bad about that but at the same time I am so tired and worried I feel he would be better in a place where there is a nursing staff and I can just sit with him and not have to make any more decisions. I know he won't be in pain anymore and his suffering will soon be over.