More horror, constipation, blood goo from penis, etc

Update:

I have been back in hospital and finally producing clear urine mostly, some sediment. They will keep the catheter in another week and on a Cipro 500mg twice per day, but sending me home again today

Then in a week will have a bladder scan and catheter out. Hopefully no more blockages.

Also will go back on casodex until IMRT in 3 months time

Anxiety levels very high, as wife is alcoholic, bad liver, and has serious knee trouble now, plus has lost her job in the pub which supports her drinking.

I have No work, no income (there was supposed to be, but not now)

All of this is now hitting me now that the "immediate" troubles are overcome.

Too much

Focus on getting your health back, best you can, amidst the other distractions. When you are healthier, your problems will gain some perspective. Perhaps steer your wife toward some outside help. If she's not ready for that, think about (when you feel up to it) a support group (like Al Anon) for yourself.

But the most effective tool in my arsenal is prayer. It's really hard to focus on it now, but I know there is much good in your life. Spend some time in prayerful thanksgiving (good time of year for it) and let that goodness crowd out other thoughts for as long as you can, then ask your loving Father for some help. Then relax for a bit - at least several minutes of quiet - and see if anything seems clearer. Even if you hold no religious beliefs, the process of Thanksgiving for that which is good in your life, and quiet reflection afterwards, will help you cope.
You are in my prayers.
Mikey

Thank you all so much. It makes a real difference

Was sent home monday evening. Tuesday was good and felt really good after dinner but woke up with pain in leg at 4am last night.

Called hospital at 8am for advice, so.......


Back in hospital today for scan of leg, possible DVT clot.

Can't seem to win here.

I am focused on the successful surgery and getting past all these setbacks. They just seem to go on and on.

* sighs *

Feeling better now, but still 1/2 a man. The scan was negative, they are not sure why my leg above the knee is numb. "Perhaps small clots in muscle etc during surgery", who knows.

I am trying to go for a walk every day, but the weather is so crappy in London and I feel exhausted many days.

Still wearing the catheter, not much trouble with it now, out soon I hope. I have found a place that supplies two types of "sheath" catheters like condoms. Will try those until I get my exercises going again.

Again, thanks for all your support.

Good luck to you all.
William