Hi all,
I've been away for a week on a work project, limited access to a computer, a number of new postings I want to read. I'm thrilled this thread seems to have so many people reading it -- I guess it's a strong thread for folks going strong for diet as a major part of their PC treatment.
While I was away I saw first-hand how some of my old automatic habits of eating -- eating fruit, eating dairy, eating "health food ice cream" (those little yummy Rice Dream chocolate-dipped "ice cream" [frozen vanilla soy milk] sandwiches. I love cheese and used to eat a lot of it, but with my no dairy self-imposed rule of the last two months (no fruit, no dairy, no meat) I had pretty much stayed on the "wagon" with no exceptions. I saw how putting myself in new surroundings, all of a sudden my frig is back at home, and my self-discipline re food went out the window.
I'm so happy to be back home again. One thing is new. Rather than beat myself up with self-criticism for what I
didn't eat the past week away from home, rather focus back on
now is now, there's no time like the present to do the right thing, and life is easy and relaxed and positive and upbeat again. "Row row row your boat, gently down the stream, merrily merrily merrily, live is but a dream."
Not taking things too seriously. Loving myself. Not wasting any more time beating myself up over eating a thing or two I recently stopped eating. Start now! My life starts now. I begin again.
Yesterday I saw my 2nd opinion guy, who is a medical oncologist. Such an easygoing fella. While he reported my PSA had gone up from 4.9 to 5.7 -- they have their own in-house lab and every visit begins with a nurse sticking a needle in my arm for some blood to get, among other readings, a new PSA score -- he emphasized that he considers 4.9 and 5.7 within the range of normal variation. He told me if my PSA score jumped up to 10 or 20 or 40, or was heading in that direction with significant jumps, that would be the time to assess possible other options. I know he was talking about
RP, radiation, etc., which I'm so diligently (except for the past week) trying my utmost to avoid with a diet I believe in -- garlic, tumeric, cayenne, broccoli, cauliflower, avocado, onions, leafy greens, tofu, fresh soybeans, etc. etc.
I asked him how long he thought the cancerous tumor my urologist had felt during a digital rectal exam last April had been there, and his response was, "I dunno, 5-6 years." His point was that with Gleason 6s all around, I've got a slow-growing cancer inside my prostate. So long as my PSA scores stay relatively low, he's okay with my avoiding more dramatic conventional methods.
I have to laugh to myself about
"It makes a difference what 'weather report' I listen to." Two weeks ago I saw my urologist who was somewhat dramatically stating his view I was not a candidate for Active Surveillance because I've got a cancerous tumor inside my prostate, and I should get it taken out (RP) quick. Like as soon as possible.
Different doctor. Different advice! My 2nd opinion medical oncologist guy mentioned a medical scientific paper that involved autopsies of a lot, maybe a thousand, deceased older guys -- my age, 70, and older -- and a full 15% of them had prostate cancer they were, according to their families, completely unaware of. Someone said here some time ago that he switched doctors when his doc said, "My job is to keep you alive until something else (besides cancer) gets you -- heart attack, stroke, car accident, etc." I wouldn't have changed doctors on hearing that comment. Sounds like pretty honest, practical, talk.
Even my urologist surgeon guy said, "If you do nothing you've got a 50/50 chance of getting another 10-15 years until your prostate cancer metastasizes." With those odds sounding pretty good to me, I thought "Then why the intense encouragement I get a DaVinci Radical Prostectomy (spelling?) like, tomorrow? If I've got another 10-15 years left on this old vehicle/space ship I'm living inside of?"
It just goes to show how important it is to keep checking with my physicians what their unspoken assumptions are. Which to me is, my (previous) urologist thinks I've got 10-15 years left on this old car" AND he thinks I need a Radical Prostectomy like, next Wednesday. Isn't there a little bit of a contradiction in those two things?
Just to cover my bases, I've got an appointment this Wednesday afternoon with the alleged (according to my 2nd opinion medical oncologist relaxed guy) prostate cancer surgery rock star partner of my old urologist. Just because I'm committed (anew!) to my diet I know I thrive on and feel great on, still, I was to keep the lines of communication
open to a top urologist/surgeon, just to hear what he has to say -- even if I know pretty much what he's going to say.
I'll take a friend with me so there are two sets of memories, minds, people asking good questions of the urologist/surgeon in the room.
It feels great to be back. I find writing posts to this thread I started way back around September 5th -- seems like a year ago!!! -- is terrific therapy for me. I love to write and I'm often astonished at what I write . . . a
good astonished. Left to my own muddled thought processes, I'm often unsure what I think or believe. But given the chance to post here on the Healing Well Prostate Forum, just the act of trying to explain to you what's going on, there's always the wonderful side benefit that it helps me greatly in understanding my own process. Talking to other people about
the sorts of stuff that we discuss here, is tremendously valuable. It's like having 10,000 good friends out there -- JayBee, Dreamerboy, everyone else here, both who post and those who so far only read but don't post -- I never knew I had.
It's like a virtual group. Not quite the same as having 15 guys in a circle in the same room . . . responses and reflections and feedback might take a day or two or more . . . but wonder of wonders, men are actually reading these posts, and the most courageous (and/or crazy) of them (?) are posting too, which completes the circuit. We each feel seen, heard, listened to, loved, cared for. Tough to beat that. And its free too. What a deal !!
Bill Positive
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70 years in this body I've only just recently
properly appreciated -- better late than never!
Prostate biopsy procedure late July 2014
Diagnosed Prostate Cancer early August 2014
Prostate nodule 7/2014, 6 /2014, 4/2014
PSA history:
1/08 4.6
4/08 6.4
7/08 3.5
12/09 2.5
2/11 4.4
4/12 3.2
4/14 5.4
8/14 5.1
9/3/14 4.9
10/13/14 5.7
CT & bone scan 8/12/2014 negative
1st Pathology Report (8/1/2014) on 7/28/14 biopsy
4 cores Gleason 6 (3+3), 69%, 75%, 100%, 100%
2 cores Gleason 7 (3+4), 66%, 88%
1st Second Opinion Pathology Report (8/26/2014) on 7/28/14 biopsy
6 cores Gleason 6 (3+3), 77%, 77%, 78%, 78%, 95%, 95%
2nd Second Opinion (or 3rd overall) Pathology Report (9/12/2014, Johns Hopkins) on 7/28/2014 biopsy.
6 cores Gleason 6 (3+3),
A. prostatic adenocarcinoma, 90%, 80%
B. prostatic adenocarcinoma, 90%, 90% ("perineural invasion identified in this case")
C. prostatic adenocarcinoma, 90%, 90%
Post Edited (Bill Positive) : 10/5/2014 7:56:01 AM (GMT-6)
Post Edited (Bill Positive) : 10/14/2014 8:38:52 AM (GMT-6)