My dad is in heaven now

I lost my dad today...
I can't even write about it here. Don't wanna be a discouragement to anybody dealing with this nasty disease, he was G10 and fought for 2 years and 3 months, all treatments stopped working fast and we were ready to go for Lutetium therapy, but he was filling dizzy and sleepy most of the time and lost his appetite. In one week he was almost asleep all day until my sister found out he must be losing consciousness slowly.
I just arrived to Canada exactly last week (Wed) when my sister said the results of PSA and CBC have come, PSA doubled in only 2 weeks, passing 10000 and his hemoglobin was 6.9. They went to hospital where my dad received 5 pack of blood and his hemo. reached 16.4. But his consciousness went down to 6 after only one night.
He was rushed to hospital again and was sent to ICU, the doctor said the tumors are everywhere now in his body.He didn't last even 24 hours in the ICU. My brother called me at midnight Canadian time (morning Iranian time) asking if I want to be there for him. I thought dad is still alive but doing poorly but my brother told me it is over.
The only flight I found will be this Friday and I will be there this Saturday for funeral. I cry and cry ... I feel my tears will never stop. My dad was my friend, my hero, my motivator and a real supporter of all my ideas. He never let the limitations of middle east stop me as a woman to grow and reach the highest levels I never even dreamed of and faced anyone who was in the middle of my way to succeed.
My best wish was to bring him to Canada to see Toronto. He'd love to travel abroad. Never happened. I am dying with sadness. I can hardly breath.
How I am going to go on without him?
Guys here, men who are the brothers, fathers of husbands of a woman, please keep fighting. Don't give up. You are someone's all life and hope. You are everything to some people. Believe me.

Farz53, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. God bless you and your loved ones!
Bill

So sorry for your loss. May your memories of him help to heal the hurt.

Sorry to hear about your father's passing, may you find comfort and peace from family and friends.

Larry

Farz,
You will need time to grieve, and although we probably don’t ever fully process the loss of our parents, I’m confident you will be able to move forward. My best to you and your family.

Sadly, most of us have or will have similar experiences. Stay strong, remember the good times. It will get better, but won't be the same. Best of luck.

Farm, so sorry for your loss. You will never get over it. But you will learn to live with it. You were so concerned and such a help to him through this battle. You are his legacy, a good legacy that he will be proud of. Take comfort in that.
May he Rest In Peace.

Sorry for your loss Farz. I know what you are going thru having lost my dad in February. As others have said hang on to the good memories and know he will still be in the back of your mind while as you are going thru your life. I know when I do something special or that he would be proud of me for I miss being able to tell him about it, but I know he is watching and saying way to go.

It is difficult going thru this with parents when you know the probable outcome, but knowing you were there fighting with him is something that helped keep him going.

Larry

Farz,
I am so sorry for your loss.
I too lost my hero to this disease on February 16, 2006. He was a man of honor, integrity, wisdom and abounding love. Life will never be the same but the pain will subside over time. The grief is so painful because the love is so great...
Take care.

Farz.

I am so sorry to hear this. I hope that you can arrange travel. My sincere condolences to you and your family, but more, I feel like you went as far as you could in trying to be helpful and supportive in these last few months.

Thank you everyone and my heart goes to anyone who lost a loved one. i understand you with all my being.
@142: I got the ticket and I am in Dubai now. 2 hours away from Iran.
@all: Let me thank you here all go the kind support and generously providing information. Everyone in my family said I did enough but I still feel so sad thinking maybe there had been another treatment weapon to try to save him. I watched my dad turning from an athletic mascular and tall giy into a tiny little man , even his height was shrinkig in the past year or lets say last 6-7 months.
My grandpa (my dad's father) lived about 90 years healthy and independently and I always assumed this would be a genetic insurance card for my dad too to live even longer as he was never seriously sick or be im hospital before 2017. But I was wrong.He was 71 and his hair was still not that much gray. Even not 1 filled tooth...I know I am grieving here and it might not be the right place. But this is the place I always checked for new treatments, symptoms, shared experience. Not the journey has ended but I was listening to Queen this morning singing: The show must go on...

Very sorry for your loss.

Farz,

I’m very sorry to read this. Rest assured, your father knew how much he was loved and there really is no better gift we can give to another human being then our love. Take care of yourself and your family during this hard time. Know that many people are thinking of you now and sending our strength to you.