Alex - I'm noticing how much help YOU are also doing for everyone here . . . just think, your first posting was Feb 23 and 5 pages and 1768 views with 107 responses later . . . . . that's awesome!
I keep searching through your pages and although I find your initial diagnosis and PSA numbers easy enough I cannot find what's the next step in your journey?? Have you decided on a treatment?? What dates??
Is there anyway you can add a signature line to your posts so everyone can really follow with you. There's so many in here with so many timelines, it's impossible to remember for everyone.
If you go into control panel you'll see where you can easily set up a signature line that will print with each of your posts. When you choose to you can also unclick at the bottom of a new post and it won't add it that time.
One other thought . . what you are describing . . .the first thing in the morning, thinking of cancer . . .is sooooooo like we were and everyone else too I'm sure. But be assured that once that cancer is OUT of you and time goes by (6 months for us) it's no long first on your mind and life does feel more normal. There are days that I suddenly go . . . oh my god Bob really did have cancer! He says its same for him!
Hang in there and this too will pass for you!
;o) Linda & Bob