Very Confussed and Scared

Hi , I don't know where to start , well I am a 61 year old female I have never been on meds of any kind I see my gyn and gp yearly and I am or was extremely healthy , until last week , I went for my annual gyn exam and she said , you know I think we should do a thyroid test seeing how you're getting up in age , and I thought nothing of the test and was actually a little upset by it and I asked well how much is that test going to cost it was around 40 dollars , so I was like ok why not , I get a call from her 2 days later and when I saw her name on my phone calling me I almost passed out , she said , you need to come in for more blood work , came back hypothyroid , we talked for a while and she strongly recommended I go on meds asap , now the thing is I show no signs of hypothyroid except for maybe a little dry skin , now here I sit with a bottle of drugs and my mind is racing 1000 mph and I start to read about this disorder and all I read are horror stories and , weight gain , hair loss and the list never seems to end with all of these problems people seem to have taking these drugs and I can not open this bottle and swallow a pill , my big fear is of course vanity I think , I am 125 pounds and no way do I want to see even a 1 pound gain and I feel as good now as I did at 20 ,, am I crazy for being so darn afraid of this , all I know is I am at wits end ,, what do I do now

ok , the first initial test was 3rd GN TSH .... 8.565 ..........uIU/ML .............. 0.350-5.500 ,,, then the other test I was called back for I don't have that paper yet , and when she told me those results my mind went into a semi fog , but the results are being mailed to me ,,,,, as for the dosage its Synthroid 0.025MG, but I was talking to the pharmacist and I told her about my not having symptoms and she made a good point saying , you well may have them and not know it because it is so gradual you may not notice them , but after taking the meds you will start feeling better and wonder wow where did this come from and also she said and my doctor said you don't want heart problems if you don't treat this , and I am starting to come around with it slowly , I just found out my close friend has it too and I never knew . so I guess in the words of Betty Davis , growing old aint for sissies , god that is so true

seems the more I read about this the more confusing it becomes and I see a lot of other things that should be checked at the lab , and when I go for my 6 week check I am going to insist that they also check these other things , and seeing how I pay for all this out of my pocket and not dealing with insurance I don't see how my doc would refuse , and as much as I love her , if she refuses then I will have to seek another ,, I am taking this med , but meds don't sit right with me in my mind , I always see them as a band-aid , and btw hypoHashimoto , seeing how it is high I want to find out why , or whats causing it to be high , and still the thing is I feel great I am a vegetarian I workout daily and run 3 miles every other day , been doing this for 40 years

well so far 4 pills , before taking pills I felt Great , now on day 4 , the back of my neck is stiff , is this like a sign I am starting to feel better from this hypo thingie , is it like no pain no gain , I don't want to call my doctor about this yet , but i will be keeping a journal about all this so when i go back in 6 weeks i will see what she thinks , as of yet i am still not happy with the thought of taking meds so could this all be in my mind , i know so many people just do what a doctor tells them to do without question but i am just the opposite , i question everything , its the rebel in me and i can't help that , so does this work for me , or against me in how i feel right now , but on plus side my doctor is the type that does listen and wont fluff of my concerns and as i am writing this part of me is saying , OMG Anne how self-centered are you , , wow i must be a bad person , Rufous57 and HypoHashimoto were kind enough to respond to my post and i didn't even thank them , or ask how they are doing , and i do hope you all are well ,and just curious how did you peeps feel the first few days or weeks after starting pills

interesting , you had said my levels were quit high , and I told my doctor I do not want to go on meds period , and she said , that's up to you , but you really don't want to do that you really need to get on them asap ,,,,,, and now you say I may not even need this medication ,,,,,, so now I am really confused , so I guess the only thing left for me to do is see another doctor for a 2nd opinion and another test , but if I do that I would need to stop this med now and then call my doctor and tell her so I can postpone this 6 week blood work ,