well, i finally had my colonoscopy on thursday.
yuck!
the prep was horrible and painful and i didnt get very good news.
at least the colitis is not throughout my whole colon.
it is just in the left side (descending colon) and the sigmoid colon only. BUT it is SEVERE!
no UC in the rectum either which the doctor found very odd.
i have been in pretty bad pain since thursday. he found multiple polyps and i suppose he removed them. i gave permission to prior to being knocked out. i wonder if that is why it hurts so bad.
back on prednisone. 25mg for a month and then taper.
he wanted to put me on imuran. but i said no, cuz im off birth control, finally just got a period after 3 years and can get preggers at any moment. so no imuran for that reason. then he mentioned surgery.
why? why surgery if only a portion of my colon is flaring and he even said it looked like it was in healing stages.
well, that stressed me out a bit. which in turn makes my colitis worse, as stress seems to be my trigger.
now im working and im depressed and feel like crap. i just want to run away and die.
is it the pred doing this so quick. making me feel like this in just 2 days. omg, i forgot how sucky pred is.
i guess im just having a crap of a day. (no pun intended)
oh and on top of all that.. this telemarketer that i hired to set appointments for my company ripped me off $2000 and never gave me the goods AND is threatening to take legal action against me. ***?? how is this even possible?
i paid and got nothing. i should get my money back. i have a lawyer draft a letter and she gets her lawyer daddy to write back saying that i have slandered her on the internet, blah blah blah - WHICH IS UNTRUE - I have never done anything of the sort.
can things get worse? yes i know they can.. but its one of those days where i think i want to run away.
okay, thanks for reading. im done now.
maybe...