I was like you and every bm had a lot of blood, then I started having "accidents in my pants" my first scope they told me nothing is wrong, see me in 10 years, but the blood got worse. Please don't stress yourself, that's the worst you can do. Take camomile tea, get on xanax to get over the nervous hump. I wish I would have taken xanax, but I was against all medications, now I'm totally the opposite, I welcome them. I'm on 10 mg of pred right now for 14 days and LDN. Since eating bread yesterday, I had better poop today, it's a weird thing. Maybe the pred is beginning to work, even though I skipped one day, but I can totally tell a difference when I'm on it now, b/c I don't go bm durning the day and feel pretty confident. I went the last four year mainly medication free, in pain, crying and depressed, I don't recommend it at all. I tried every, every, diet and supplement you can think of, "there are no true cures" yet, if there was I would have found it. I spent over $30,000 in doctors (14 different ones to be exact) and supplements, don't keep buying and buying, you'll lose out. I would recommend checking into LDN (Low Dose Naltrexone) to see if it helps.
Relax and do things to get your mind off your butt!