Hey guys good Evening,
Just need some advice, I have suffered from UC since 1999, and the first 4/5 years I could manage how ever these last 2 years it has got a bit un bearable, I am currently on Prednesilone 20mg and MP6 and Azacol x 6 tabs, now my biggest problem is the Pred, I have been on it for over 2 years, I am so dependant on them, If i Lower the dose MY Uc gets worse, If i up them then I don't get any sleep, plus I don't want to up them as it's worse for the long run. My issue at the moment to put it in a nice way, is my head is just feeling mashed all the time my head has started to feel like this for the last 5/6 months, I have no motivation for anything at all, I have really bad mood swings, and completly regret most of the stuff I say do once it has been done, I can't do much for example go for a walk as I worry about where the nearest toilete is etc so I just seem to lock myself at home as i feel safest there. I am pretty fed up, and I know there are people out there in a lot worse positions, and conditions, but I hate feeling like this. Now I just got a job a few months ago after getting my UC under control , and because of this I have been missing hospital appointments as I don't want work to know about my condition plus I want to keep this job. I seem to feel negative all the time, and people have said go for a walk or go for excercise which I have tried but after a day of it I just give up. I never use to be like this and I am only 25. Is there any suggestions upon getting motivated or any medicine to help my head feel clear. Also does any one know any decent advice places in the UK about this ilness, because every doctor I have been to so far has just not got it right for me and I have had this 10 years now and would like to go in the right direction.
Sorry about the rant and if i'm showing i'm feeling sorry for myself, but I really don't want to and just want to be happy about life again.
Cheers guys.