Hi everyone that responded. Wow, so part of this is this ugly disease! I didn't experience this type of feeling in last flares, only when I was in prednisone did I experience it. But I'm not on it. (cross my fingers) but I would use it again if things get worse.
To McGut, what I am taking is atarax, aka hydroxyzine, yes it an antihistamine. The NP I saw prescribed this as I said I didn't want anything stronger to resort to yet. This was before my 1.5 month wait to see my regular doctor. Typically it is used for itching or to treaty allergic skin reactions. It may also be used to control distress and anxiety or to help induce sleep. It may cause some effects like dryness of the mouth, headaches, diarrhea and of course cause drowsiness, unusual tiredness (as it is supposed to do). But otherwise, this is working for me at the moment.
It is strange that there are certain peaks of anxiety, of course notably the anxiety of needing to go to the bathroom but that I resigned myself to feeling that and am used to it. But this one was a doozy for me, like I was going to freak out or something. I had to force myself to relax and wait it out, walk around a bit and think very hard of something else. It lasted for about
1/2 hour. And my poor hubby was just watching me, keeping an eye, asking if I needed anything. This has been a ride for him too! While I was feeling this, yes, I felt like I had a fever too or a hot flash! who knows exactly! sheesh! if it's not UC it could be the "Big Change!" That is scary too! LOL
and yes with the shortness of breath that is another one I didn't experience before also again (except prednisone). So thanks guys, I know then I'm not losing my mind yet!
To kops2da, it's a battle everyday! my best to you! You are certainly a tough
cookie! Way to go! To MissStacy, yes, I get very mad at this as well, think and say swear words when I am feeling cranky and crabby. That helps me once in a while and say out loud to myself, that I'm not going to let this take over my life! I've got too much to do! To wimomofthree, hang in there, you've got 3 to take care of! Just go everyday one minute at a time or 1/2 hour at a time and the next thing you know it's tomorrow again! I know how you feel because that's I how I feel sometimes, I worry about
this and that, my aging parents, my family, work or that the sky is going to fall! Sounds silly! But I have to stop myself and think that this is way too much thinking. Things will happen all of the time and you can't stop or control everything!
Thanks everyone! Later.....