I am sorry the remicade hasn't worked for you and you have to have surgery. I know you are scared but I think once you recover you will be glad you did it. Also, I would be glad I wasn't on meds that can cause horrible side effects. While remicade has helped me I would be glad to be off of it and not have to be on any scarey meds again. Keep us posted and I wish you the best and a speedy recovery.