Sarah, I see Dr Grover at Mayo. My initial appt was actually with Dr Tremaine and Dr Grover was shadowing him at the time. They had me come back a few months later for a colonoscopy and seemed to pass me off to Dr Grover at that point. I had some skepticism - I specifically picked Dr Tremaine because he was one of my brother's doctors 15 years earlier. The doctor I originally had at Mayo 17 years ago is no longer there I guess.
The reason they took me off the enemas and Colazal was the colonoscopy showed no signs of ever having UC. I thought it was strange as Mayo is the one that diagnosed me with it 17 years ago but figure hey, this is Mayo, they know what they are doing right? They suggested I stop the meds and see what happens, as I shouldn't be taking all those meds if I didn't need them. Still seemed odd that I clearly had UC (alot of bleeding and a few month flare back in college when this all started), but they said they had no signs now that I had it.
Even way back then during that horrible flare I was at least able to drink Ensure (hence why I tried it now) and eat bagels with peanut butter on them - that was about it though at the time.
Quincy, the reason I stopped my meds is because the doctors told me to. And I"m on pred because I need to get the inflamation to go away quickly - mesalamine meds won't do that for me. I know if I do have a flare, pred is the only thing that will get it under control. Mesalamine are purely maintenance meds for me. I think the doctors at Mayo, at least the one I see, feels you shouldn't be shackled to enemas your whole life so doesn't want me to take him. But at this point I've decided to go back on them - I'd rather take those everyday then be sick.
In retrospect I find myself thinking why didn't I leave well enough alone - but the Dr care I was getting in the Twin Cities was not good so I decided to go to Mayo. I'd have having alot of symptoms without bleeding (fatique, joint pains, bloating, etc) and the drs here could never tell me what that meant. They kept trying to put me on Imuran which seemed like overkill since I was having no bleeding and hadn't in over 10 years. Still, after having this so long I'll admit going to a doctor at Mayo who likely wasn't even in med school yet when I was diagnosed with this didnt' sit well with me. But at this point there is no use in looking back and wishing I wouldn't have played with the meds. It's done, now I just need to get better. I can lay awake all morning wishing I was back in the 10 year long remission but all that does is depress me. I just need to get better now.
My biggest fear is I can't get back into the same remission I've had for so long, I just want to be back to where its like I don't even have this disease. It is possible!