Moose - I had stomach issues since around 19-20, now 33 and I've been taking opiates (hyrdocodone, oxycotin, oxycodone, you get the picture) to get the much needed relief since i was about
27. Thats 6 years of opiate addiction/relief - whatever you want to call it. NOTHING i've ever taken (Cansana, Lomotil, enema's etc) worked NEARLY as well as optiates. I tried quitting opiates several times but always ended up back on them because of flare ups and REALLY bad pain in my back which I went to a Physical Therapist for but they couldn't fix it. I'm trying to be good again and change my life around TODAY - I've been off the opiates for about
a weak and a half again and I really don't know what to do because I'd rather be addicted to pain killers than feel like I do now. I was diagnosed with Proctitis and will have Ulcertive Colitis probably within 10 years, if I follow in my mothers footsteps which my GI dr. has said I am doing (minus the pain killers).I was NEVER once sick from withdrawals because I either wound down or used Suboxone - but my stomach would remind me that I needed to take opiates if I wanted to feel good.
So if you want to be conflicted everyday, buying drugs on the street, and having a VERY VERY expensive habit, do what I did and take opiates such as you are doing. They make you feel normal and THEN high...which is what is exactly how it sounds for you. Trust me - Its VERY easy to say "I deserve these meds because I want to feel normal just like everyone else". Its been my excuse for the last 6 years.
Post Edited (Aldohux) : 7/27/2012 11:21:20 AM (GMT-6)