Posted 9/10/2012 7:04 PM (GMT 0)
I am currently on my second clinical trial for a new biologic treatment. I have exhausted all other options and I feel this might be my last kick at the "medical intervention" can before I have to entertain the surgery option.
Part of me is screaming, "yes! Let's do this already!" after 4 years of hell (constant flare, getting worse and worse all the time, never a single remission)
and part of me is wondering whether I will ever feel "normal" again, or even remember what that feels like. My dad had the surgery when it was still experimental in Canada, back in 1985 or so, and he has lived pretty normally ever since, so I'm not sure what I'm nervous about. I guess I feel like after failure after failure with drug treatments, I'll be one of the 30% who can't do the reversible pouch and might be stuck with the bag forever. Which makes me feel really really sad.
Anyway, I hope your consult and/or surgery goes well.