OT kinda... panic disorder - feel like I'm going crazy

I'm seeing my specialist this Tuesday because just a week after feeling better, I started to feel bad again. Bleeding, cramps, and frequency are all there. I use cortifoam in the morning and salofalk enema at night. I've been on this regimen since July 24th. On July 24th, the doctor admit my proctitis was bad and it would take a while to help completely. I saw him again on September 10th and he said my proctitis was healed very well, just a little granularity. I didn't feel it at all though and I still don't know what's going on...

I made a post before about anxiety related to my proctitis but now my panic attacks are becoming frequent. I get chest pain, back pain, feeling like I'm being choked, etc, the typical scary stuff. I just feel so detached from my body. I went from having my future finally planned for once to being in the hospital scheduling a colonoscopy for rectal bleeding. I've never been the same, I feel good sometimes but I just feel like I'm passing by... I don't have any ativan left, I was only given ten since my family doctor figured counseling (I never went to schedule anything) and time would fix my panic.

So, what I really want to ask is if you had panic disorder, would you just go for the drugs or therapy? I don't think I will accept any SSRI's. I had a bad reaction to cipralex, fast heart beat, diarrhea, cramps, sweating, etc. It was terrible and I had to stop the drug. I was seen by a psychiatrist at the hospital that night.

Years ago before I even had UC I was suffering from really bad anxiety and panic attacks. I literally had a problem leaving my room. I was put on a few different meds. Some didn't do a thing and others caused the nasty side effects they said they would and that was a problem for me. I did get some Klonopin that really helped on days when I just was feeling anxious and wanted something to take the edge off. Couldn't take too much or it knocked me out.

From the sounds of things you would benefit going to talk to someone and medication to calm your anxiety would be good too.

At this point if I have a panic attack or start feeling anxiety I know its my bodies way of saying "ok something has got to give".

I've had anxiety treatment success with Citalopram (Celexa) - an SSRI. You might want to ask if you had a reaction to one ssri, what are the chances you would have the same reaction with another.

Counseling does help too. Counselors can teach you how to figure out how to handle potentially negative thoughts and actions that are contributing to your panic attacks.

I deal with a lot of anxiety but I've recently somewhat got a handle on it.
I read a book called "Buddha's Brain".
On the back it says, "If you can change your brain, you can change your life."

It is a very informative book and totally tells you how your mind works when it comes to stress and anxiety as well as other situations in our lives. It helps you make sense of your thoughts and guides you into and understanding of how to quiet the mind.

I had a horrible anxiety attack yesterday. Had a very stressful week. Started getting dizzy, head felt disconnected......started losing control of my thinking.
I stopped it. Normally I would have freaked out but I didn't. I comforted myself and I took 10 really good deep breaths and realized that what I was so stressed out about was not me and to let it go and give it to God. And I did! And my face stopped being numb, my heart rate slowed down and all was right with the world again.
It felt good to know that I was in control and to know that I could bring myself back to "the now" (as the book calls it).

I'm hoping you can get to feeling better. Boy do I know your pain! Much love and lots of healing thoughts and prayers coming your way!