canadagal asked:
"where do you live? what country? or state?
that might help posters direct you better to resources. There are people all over the world on this site.
I'm also guessing (no offense) that English might not be your primary language as some of your statements are a bit difficult to follow. Give as much detail and information as you can and feel comfortable with; this forum has lots of members who have been through many different experiences and are wiling to share info."
also putting info in your signature would be extremely helpful -