notsosicklygirl said...
One of the girls who had surgery recently was supposed to get a j-pouch and found out AFTER surgery that she's not a candidate or she's not healing correctly for the pouch and it may never be an option. Those types of stories scare me a ton. I'd truly hate to live with a bag. I know it's not the end of the world but buying and changing supplies sounds so inconvenient. Again, it's a million times better than active UC...
I didn't opt for surgery until I reached a point where I would be OK with either a j-pouch or a permanent ileostomy. I'm having three steps so if the pathology report on my colon had indicated Crohn's after step 1, that would be it. No j-pouch, perm ileo. I was so sick at the time -- truly believed I was dying -- that it didn't matter to me. Heidi's blog (www.ostomyoutdoors.com) reassured me a lot. I'm not a big outdoorsy girl like her but seeing what she was capable of and how nonchalant she could be about
something that seemed so scary meant a lot to me.
Remicade didn't work for me, even a little. The only way I could tell that I was getting Remicade and not pure saline were the migraines I had the day after infusions. Still, I don't regret trying. If I could have had a full or even manageable remission on Remicade I would have taken it and forgotten about
surgery. Surgery is hard. When all is said and done I'm going to have about
a year of my life (*hopefully*) that revolved around surgery. I'm not saying I'm not having fun and doing productive things in the meantime -- I'm back at work, I see my friends, I exercise, I *eat* -- but ultimately this year is about
surgery for me and major things that I want to do have to be put on the backburner or scheduled around my time in the OR and recovering.
One thing that I did not know before my surgery is that if you have pancolitis with any level of inflammation (aside from zero) for many years, eventually a colectomy may be indicated regardless of your symptoms. There's a woman on the j-pouch.org forum whose UC was not super out of control, but because she had pancolitis for 20+ years she ended up with surgery anyhow. I was diagnosed with pancolitis at 25, so although I wish it weren't so, in some ways it's for the best that I was forced into doing my surgery now when I'm pretty healthy. Probably my biggest regret is that it wasn't the right time for me to have a pregnancy and child when I was younger/before I was diagnosed, as fertility declines after surgery and delivery becomes higher risk.