"besides, it's gonna happen one day anyway so what's the difference really LOL!"
well pb, I don't want to hijac my own thread too much, but I can only assume there are people in your life who love you and care about you and will surely miss you when the time comes - I mentioned a while back that my bil had been fighting a glioblastoma for almost 2 years - he lost that battle on the 4th of july and while he is off to see his Lord in heaven, I am going to miss him beyond words - I would prefer to have him here for another 10 years and I would hope the people in your life feel the same - i'm truly sorry that your life is not good - and I do understand completely your being ok with it ending - just makes me sad is all -