Since no inflammation was seen during the rigid scope, and since UC starts at or near the rectum, and since your episodes pass fairly quickly with months in between, the chance of UC is very low. Don't know about
some divecular disease or Crohn's colitis. I think these are low prob too.
The test with the gas is an imaging test to get a picture of your colon. Any masses or tumors would have been spotted, so likely safe on that end.
It does sound like you have piles, not clear how far up they go. You need to be scoped. The fact of normal blood counts suggests the bleeding is acute and limited to episodes, and not chronic. Even small amounts of chronic bleeding will deplete your red cells, hemoglobin, and iron levels.
However, the problem that seems to be degrading your quality of life is worry. The level you describe is almost pathological. Sitting on the sofa for a week, almost no time to worry about
family, because all you can think about
is a test - a fairly simple, fairly safe test that you absolutely need. And then canceling the test - after getting reassurance here that the risk of problems is very low. That behavior is a problem. The revelation that you can't tell your husband about
this suggests broader unhealthy patterns in the relationship.
I recommend counseling for the abnormal levels of worry, obsession, and self-defeating choices. You need to get a handle on the paralyzing and reality distorting levels of worry. An anxiety med and a professional to talk with seems a good choice.to be you own advocate. You need to be able to face things. There is support there.
Then you need to be scooped. I would go for the colonscopy because of sedation and finding out about
piles all along the colon. Knowing is better.
Post Edited (DBwithUC) : 10/4/2013 8:38:13 AM (GMT-6)