Thanks, guys. You've already been an inspiration to me- your strength in handling this issue head on. I easily get scared and have the tendency to dwell on the negative side. I think more than UC, I need to improve my mental health as well. Been like this even before my bowel issues. I guess I'm afraid of being a burden to others, especially since I have two kids who depend on me. I'm also a hypochondriac and am afraid of pain or suffering. My father recently passed away because of stroke and for a period of time I thought I had stroke too. It's been a crazy year for me, but I'm trying really hard to cope.
My goal from now until I get the results is to stay positive and distract myself as much as possible.
Someone told me that the theory of Self-fulfiling Prophecy fits me to a T. Where I work there's usually a period of two months when I get super busy, and then a period of downtime after that. For the past two years, it was during this downtime that I discover an illness of some sort. Like Mitral Valve Prolapse which I discovered in 2012 and then anxiety/panic attacks and temporary hypertension last year. I guess I was subconsciously anticipating that somethine bad again is gonna happen to me this year. True enough- this!
I'm trying my best to keep my mental health, at least for the sake of my family. Thanks again for your kind and encouraging words.