bananagirl said...
no matter which way i go- having UC forever or getting my colon out and having a bag, both of these choices suck in my opinion.
Couldn't agree more, banana.
I was somebody who lived with Crohn's for 13 years before opting for surgery; 13 years of constant disease and never being in remission. I would've carried on living with it, but basically I ran out of choices: the only two I had left were staying on high doses of steroids indefinitely and surgery. If neither steroids or surgery had been available, I'd almost certainly be dead by now from toxic megacolon or, possibly, just plain starvation.
I should be 'grateful' in that sense, but truthfully I'm not. I'm just worn out: by the disease, by the surgery, by the recovery, by my still-wonky guts. I had a cast-iron digestive system before I got diagnosed with Crohn's at the age of 25; now it just sucks.