Hi all,
I'm really confused and upset. When I was hospitalized this past summer, remicade was, as it is for many UC patients, my miracle. After trying everything else it immediately got my symptoms under control and it felt like I had my life back. My first dose was early August. I had no issues with it until early November, when I had a flare. Put on prednisone and had to tough it out until my next December infusion which worked like a charm. Things were fine from then basically until now with a few bumps in the road.
I started having abdominal pain, a tiiiny bit of blood and urgency before my last infusion (April 18th) and was so grateful that I was finally getting my infusion so it would get better. Wrrrooongggg. Since then I've been rapidly deteriorating and unable to go to work w/ severe abdominal pain, nausea, vomiting (just once), blood, urgency with very little production and complete loss of appetite. Been thrown on Pred again which absolutely kills me and nothing seems to be changing except the fact that my face has blown up the size of a planet
I guess I'm just wondering - is this normal? I did a level around my November flare and everything was right where it should be. I guess things can change but it just seems to me that if Rem was completely not working for me i wouldn't feel terrible one infusion and great the next. I really can't deal with this cycle - I just want something that works and keeps working. I especially can't deal with being on and off prednisone constantly. It makes me feel terrible physically and horrifically depressed.
I'm only on 20mg right now but my GI doesn't believe in going above 40mg so I doubt they'll bump me. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm going insane and I don't have the strength to deal with this anymore. I'm only 19 and only been diagnosed ~10 months. I don't know how some of you have been dealing with this 30+ years. I can't do that. This kills me.