Posted 1/16/2008 3:32 PM (GMT 0)
i am 17 years old and one day went to the doctors because i always got mouth ulcers like loads.Then he said that i might be enemic and i got lots of tests down and it showend that i was. I still went to the doctor for cheak ups to see how i was and i ended up telling him that i sometimes was bleeding from the back passage and that a lot of the time i was feeling very tired. the reason why i was not shocked when i started bleeding was because when i was 7 i had it and the doctor told me that i had an anal fisher that was a cut inside my passage which opened everytime i went to the loo and that it was just bleeding. Nothing ever happend and i just got use to it vbut as time went on it went away. but when it started again i thought i should say. he then started talking about inflamitary diseases which were things i had never heard of. i was sent to the hospital where i was cheaked with just a 10 cm scope that when up my rectom and was told i had chrons disease. i had never heard about it and looked up everything and was horrified. i was then sent a few months later for a sigmoidoscoapy (sorry about my spelling) where they then discovered that i had ulceritive colitis and he said that it was not half as a bad as chroms which made me feel relieved. then i was given pentasa which made me feel ill, then enamas and asacol. by this time the ulceritive colitis was at it peak and i thought that was the end of my life and would spend the rest of my life sitting ona toliet and feeling ill and never being able to go out, i was still at school and had a part time job three days a week a serious boyfriend and lots of friends. the first year was dreadful i was not allowed to sit my exams because i was of so much i lost contact with a lot of friends. it also changed my personality i was mad angry and said all the time, i took my ilness out on my family and my boyfriend who i have now lost but we are still best friends and i could not have got throguh this without him, i realised who my friends were after being diagnosed with uc and realised that my family were not as great as i thought they were. maby its just becasue people who do not have this disease have any clue what we have to put up with, its not just sitting on the loo it the pain the tiredness, no hope, sadness,bitterness and feeling very alone. but i think i am in remission now and i hope i am for a while im back and school doing better and hope to get all the people i lost back. i now look forward to my life even though there will be hard times and i might not think like this, but we all just have to remember we only live once and ilness or no ilness we have to live with what we have got and try to have the best time of our lifes not matter what my face us even if it is a load of crap xxx