Yep, still thinking about
it. I sometimes think that maybe it's unnecessary--I mean, at my worst I've had to go to the bathroom 12 times, not 40 like Mike! But it is affecting my quality of life. I can't even leave my house for more than a few hours without becoming completely exhausted; actually, I'm still pretty tired inside the house. I can't decide about
what I want to do in the future education- and job-wise b/c I don't know what I'll physically be able to do (and if I get flares like this, then I probably won't be able to do very much). I don't know how long medications will work and what the side effects will be. I guess the worst part is all of the uncertainty--I just don't know what to expect! I feel like if I'm most likley going to need surgery later, I might as well do it now so I can end some of the suffering.
Insurance is a problem for me, too. My dad's insurance will cover me as long as I'm in school, but I can graduate next spring. So, if I will have surgery, it needs to be sometime this year or early next year. And even if I don't have surgery, I still won't have insurance to cover meds starting next summer!
The ostomy and j-pouch boards do scare me, but I guess people are posting b/c they are actually needing help. Anyway, I can't help but to lean toward surgery...