a picture of misery...

hows this for a visual... 

this morning about 5.20am, i move the tiniest of inches in bed to get a bit more comfortable than my uncomfortable position.

bam... have to get up and run to the toilet.

grab my sweatshirt, throw it on and run to the can.

turn on my little space heater cuz its winter and freezing here in my bathroom.  (i swear there are icicles.. really)

so im sitting there rocking back in forth and moaning cuz it hurts and what happens?

my nose starts bleeding.  what?

yea, my nose bleeds profusely, i guess maybe from the pushing or what not. who knows.

so i grab a sheet of tp and roll it up and stuff it in my nostril with half it sticking out.

then i proceed to continue pooping.  if thats what you call blood squirting outta my bum.

then i get that horrible nauseous feeling and reach over and grab one of my handy plastic grocery bags that i have stuffed in the corner just for moments like this.

then i start puking.  (horribly loud, my husband tells me later)

and the pain in my gut gets even worse and im pushing and pushing while moaning, groaning and i guess you could say, grunting.

then the tp shoots outta my nose with some of the blood and i have to try and reach some more tp, roll it up and shove it back in my nostril so blood doesnt get everywhere (with one hand). 

oh and im still puking, with one hand holding the bag.  have my head half in so i dont project it all over the bathroom.

and the poos, being a little more formed at this point are excrutiating and i swear they have corners and sharp edges (even tho they LOOK small and squishy.)

so here i am,  puking in a bag, crapping in the can, and tp stuffed in my nose and tears streaming down my face while sounding like im having a baby. 

just thought i would share my picture of misery in the hopes of giving you all a chuckle!

(now that its over, i can laugh about it)

Oh my goodness - I don't think it gets much worse than that! I'm so sorry. I hope it's just a fluke and you feel better soon.

Oh no Kazy I hope it's something as simple as a bug that's gone already! I've been there without the bloody nose but puking in a bucket (I keep one for that very reason too) and going at the same time.

well, its kinda normal except for the nose bleed. its not a bug cuz its a pretty regular thing.
i have the bags in the bathroom cuz when the pain is really bad i involuntarily puke.

its usually when the poos are a bit more formed and it really hurts coming out. the last like 6 inches or somehting is the real killer.

so it might be a sign of getting better since i have more formed bms, but then its bad cuz its excrutiating.
like a win-lose situation.

thanks for the hugs n wishes!

are you on any rectal meds? Maybe the rowasa that I hear other's talk about or the foams. Just to help heal the end so it's not so painful?

Oh my gosh, that sounds horrible, kazygirl!
It would definitely be a good idea to use the cortifoam every night. At least it's better then a liquid enema!

Oh my, I am so sorry you have it so bad.  This disease s----.  I wish there were a cure for all, that didn't involve colon removal.  Good for you to vent and know that we feel bad for you.  I hope you have better days soon.  Bellski

krazygirl - I know you have a lot more experience and worse condition than I do but here is my take. I started with the suppositories and then doc put me on Colazal and changed me to the foam.  That made the difference in the "hurting" down below.  I am considered mild to moderate left-sided - not up very far.  Seems every day or so I have a bad day but mostly it is getting better. 

Believe me at 68 and obese - it is extremely difficult to USE the rectal medication but has made the big difference.  If you can keep it in only 20 or 30 minutes.  I found not all comes out anyway like the suppositories even if you go pretty quickly - guess it sticks to the colon.

By the way, I have done it all same as you except for nose bleed.  It is the cramping without results that is the worse and mine seems so much better.

Hope you are doing better. 

Kazygirl, I'm sorry to hear your story. I wish you are feeling better now.

One day in early February I had a bad flare and I got up mid night for diarrhea. My blood pressure dropped drastically after the BM. I lost consciousness after I had washed and wiped my hands. My husband heard a loud noise in his sleep but he managed to sleep for another hour before he found me missing and was instead sitting on the floor in the washroom.
When he woke me up I walked back to my bed and found it's an hour since I got up for the BM. He sent me to ER the next morning. I was found dehydrated, given I.V. and then sent home.
A couple of days later, I got up again mid night for diarrhea. This time my husband followed me to the washroom. I lost consciousness again after the BM. He said I looked at him with my eyes widely open but would not speak. He shook me and I woke up. I was sent to ER again.
From then on, my husband demands me to wake him up if I need to go mid night. Fortunately, I get better and better since then and don't have the midnight runs any more.

oh my gosh... burnabygirl... that is crazy to lose consciousness. you take care!!
any word on why that is happening?

potato... yeah, if ya can't laugh about it might as well jump off a bridge.
not really, but hey, its better than sitting in bed wallowing in misery. i tried that last time and it gets old. hehe.

and cheers to all the good wishes!
i used the colifoam last night and didnt go once in the night.
what an idiot i am for procrastinating on it.
just one night of relief and im a believer.

Congrats! I'm so glad you tried it! Even more glad it worked!