Posted 1/17/2011 2:34 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all, I'm just coming out of a 15-day hospital stay (discharged in the morning! keep your fingers crossed for me!) with a flare now under control with Remicade and prednisone. I'm going to be able to taper off the prednisone, but they're saying it will be at least 6 weeks.
The steroids are making me feel like a battery on fire - heart pounding, irrational, super-emotional, alternately angry and then crying, anxious, shaking, etc etc etc. Also I'm peeing all the time (is that normal?) and I have moon-face. (Totally minor - but one more silly thing to feel self-conscious about.) I'm taking small hits of Ativan to try and take the edge off, and Ambien at night, but I can still only sleep for a few hours at a time.
It's one thing to lie around in my hospital bed and buzz like a live wire - how do I go back and function in my Normal Life feeling like this?? I think my family is expecting me to come out and be a normal, mellow and sweet sick recovering patient - meanwhile I feel like a MANIAC.
How do you guys do this??
p.s. Also I'm not even starting to contemplate what it will be like trying to go back to work as a Third-Grade teacher........ARG.