Thanks for your kind thoughts. Stealthguardian- it is indeed the lonelinest decision in the world because there is always, and always will be, new things on the horizon. I dont fault anyone for quitting at six months or hanging on for decades- it is not always clear what is best and if one had a hundred "clones" of oneself, I bet there would be a hundred different outcomes if all the clones made the same decision. I think disease prognosis and progression is a bit like predicting long term weather- models are fantastic at forecasting days out now but after ten days or so the models become completely and utterly meaningless.
Thoreau- thanks. I wish you well with your own struggles. The one thing I have
open eyes about
though is that surgery doesnt cure one of IBD- even if one "clearly" has UC (and mine leans to Uc but is somewhat indeterminate) that diagnosis can change later. The true cause of IBD is still a mystery, but the science seems to be getting foggier in making the hatd distinction between crohns and UC, such that ten percent or so of Ucers, years after colon removal, turn out to have crohns all along. However, as best as I can tell, even when tHis happens, colon removal often buys many years of disease total remission, and when it reappears it is often much milder and more treatable than the original beast. But man, talk anout having power to survive, this evil DD.
That said, I recently saw and enjoyed the Tarantino movie "Django unchained" and the last line of the tune by Jim Croce "I got a name" encapsulates the nature of the surgery decision for me: "movin' ahead so life won't pass me by." As my wife says, I could be hit by a bus (what is it about
being hut by buses anyway?) tomorrow and shouldnt I start living life free of the pain of IBD? To those who do great on meds or natural cures, great- butif its a nonstop struggle one has to eventually decide to move on or let life pass you by.
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