Isn't it amazing how we keep plugging along day after day?

I'm actually amazed at how we keep truckin' along with all these bowel problems.

Even though I'm pretty bad right now, at the same time I'm pretty resilient. Mental strength is a biggie, but also after my body pretty much empties out in the morning I keep my fingers crossed, pray a little, meditate a little, and I'm always amazed at later in the day you'd never know I had any kind of health problem.

At work I don't believe anyone suspects anything, and don't really share it much.

It's a very hidden health problem I must say!!

John

I'm still not sure how my husband and I managed after our son was born. I was so incredibly sick, we both worked full-time (after I went back to work when he was 12 weeks old), and we lived over halfway across the country from our families, so had nobody to rely on for help.

But, we got through it and I can honestly say I think our marriage is stronger for it!

I was lucky in that the master bedroom closet was a walk-in and was attached to the bathroom. I just kept some toys in there so that I could put him in there when I'd need to poo and was home alone with him. Also, I didn't have the type of BM's that would keep me on the toilet for lots of time, so by the time he got bored and/or wanted to be picked up, I was generally finished.

I look back at years and years of photos of myself where I put on a fake, forced smile that tells me how much pain I was feeling at the time. Remission- or successful surgery (in my case) do finally put a real, non fake smile back though. The DD sucks- puts our families through hell too.

It's our animal instinct to survive. In most cases, it trumps all.