Trinity: Thank you so much for your kind words, recovery has not been fun at all, but it has been well worth it to get out of the ED hole. I was orthorexic which is an extreme fixation on foods that were deemed the "healthiest" in my mind. I was always researching and finding new reasons to be afraid of food and my diet was shrinking and shrinking. I would just start to avoid eating because my diet was so limited that I just didn't find it appealing.
My biggest fear when getting the UC diagnosis was feeling like I was forced to go down that road again. It crushed me initially, because I thought it meant that I would NEED to go down the road I had desperately been trying to get away from for a year and a half. I thought all my efforts and struggles were in vain. Fortunately, that has not been the case at all, and recovering from my ED and OCD remains my #1 priority.
I think the anorexia definitely played a role in getting to this point. My body was incredibly weak. Starvation can cause the immune system to act very funny, and recovery can make lots of things jump around. I got a gut infection that cleared up with a round of vanco and multiple infections eventually led me to taking a course of antibiotics that resulted in bloody stools for months.
But anyway, thank you for the words of encouragement, Trinity, I will keep them close! You make sure you never let the ED come back! :)
EDIT: To anyone reading, I don't mean to harp on diets to control your UC. Eating disorders are different from regular dieting because they are a psychological condition brought on by having a genetic predisposition to have an anxiety response triggered toward food in response to starvation (many EDs are developed during weight loss efforts for this reason). This response makes it difficult to just eat foods whenever you are hungry and the more you starve, the more cut off you feel from your hunger until it is unbareable for your body or you die. Recovery from an ED is like recovery from any other psychological condition and involves a lot of anxiety to eat food again, which you eventually overcome, hence "recovery".
If eating a certain way helps control your condition and improves the overall quality of life, that is awesome and you should keep doing what you are doing.
Post Edited (Tunnelvisionary) : 9/1/2014 11:53:34 PM (GMT-6)