quincy said...
You're way over micromanaging, but you are early in the game of dealing with the symptoms, eating, functioning. It'll take a while to find your way to not freaking out so much and loosen the rules you've set for yourself.
How are you doing with the enemas?
q
I'm glad to know that I'm being overly cautious! Thank you for checking in on the enemas, here's an update: night 3 I was able to keep it in for 7 hours. But last night, only 4. I don't get cramping during the enema, but I ended up getting my usual stomach aches an hour or so later. They pass, but they come back over and over again until I finally give in and head to the toilet. I always hear about
the cramping just being temporary and if you let it pass, it doesn't come back. Mine do. But I think that's just from the nature of my condition, not the enema. Just makes it a lot harder to keep in once early morning rolls around. Hopefully I just had a bad night because of what I ate and tonight will be better. I really, really want these things to work. I need them to. It's day 26 since diagnosis and I'm so ready to feel halfway normal.