Posted 2/17/2018 12:26 PM (GMT 0)
Barto... the disease is very personal. We all go through different phases with it. The denial phase is really strong for some people. It was for me. In my opinion, the shorter the denial period, the better, because you can start getting real about re-arranging your life to deal with the disease, and you can investigate treatment options more realistically. For myself, I needed therapy to cope with having a potentially life threatening illness. It was very, very hard on me. It still is. I have an educational background in medicine and research which has empowered me to look into things more deeply. Even so, nothing really prepared me to deal with the loss of life and opportunity. The first couple of years when I survived major flares, I had all kinds of narratives about it... like wow, I must have figured out how to fix myself and really live with this! Until the next flare... and the next... and the next...
Like any torture victim, you can only stay strong for so long. Eventually it breaks your will.
I'm only telling you this because the stronger the denial, the harder you will break when the time comes. It's better to practice acceptance now. You can still probably lead a functional life, but if you are too busy pretending the disease isn't a serious concern, then you may be letting it get out of control.
Yes... you will probably be treating your UC in some way or another for the rest of your life, unless you get surgery. Even then, a lot of people have lifelong complications from surgery. Their j-pouch fails or they get chronic pouchitis. Their permanent ileo doesn't fit properly, it leaks all the time, they are allergic to the products used to adhere the bag; the bag itself may be hard to live with, etc. There are really no good solutions for this disease right now. However, you may get lucky and the medications will give you lasting relief.