My doctor put cancer on my mind

Hi D, Im currently stood up at my PC as it appears that my stomach problems seem to be emanating from sitting hunched over for long periods of time.
My oesophagus is feeling better Im able to eat ok, although I have been getting anxious eating, because I've not eaten very much over the last 3 weeks my stomach seems to have shrunk somewhat and I the food takes a couple of hours to go through. This morning I woke with palpitations, feeling week, disorientated and slightly faint. It was enough for me to drag myself off to the docs. He told me to eat little and often until my appetite comes back fully and has prescribed some anti-anxiety medication. My body is craving vitamins!! So he put me on a supplement, banana and choc shakes. Ive had something to eat today, but I feel very tired even though I slept ok last night. I supposed my immune system has taken a knock.

Anyways... thanks for sharing your story. The asthma sounds terrible, I mean its bad enough having GERD with that! I feel for you, you are so very brave. But you always stay positive and that is very admirable. No I'm not sorry I asked, I do like reading your posts, I wish I could shake a magic wand and take all your troubles away from you.

Just click on acidgirl your my email is there ;)

Take care,

J XX

Oops, I didn't look at the second page of our conversation. I'm glad your swallowing is better. I think some anxiety meds will help you, as I am afraid you've gotten yourself really worked up and it's hard to break that cycle without a little help.

Don't worry...all will return to normal. As I told you, I've spent months recovering from GERD issues, but I did ultimately recover completely. It's just there have too many episodes, and my asthma is just too problematic, to not try the surgery.

Thanks for the email address...I'll write as soon as have a moment. At this point, I think it's more approriate than continuing this thread! Thanks for the info! You'll have mine, once I email, so we can support each other's healing that way instead!

How lucky we found this forum!
Take care,
D x

Hi Jules,
Hope you're feeling better today! I emailed you a short email yesterday. Did you get it? I hadn't heard from you, so wondered.
Talk to you soon.
Denise

ive got all the symptoms again, but its manifested in a different way now, dont have swallowing probs (dysphagia) but now ive got a fear of swallowing anything including drinks, with slight gagging. Ive had the all clear with all the tests, seems like the major factor here is ANXIETY!! end of.

Thanks Dencha, its got really bad this time yeh its mind over matter, its so hard. I joined the Linden Method, it helps a bit. I ended up in the Emergency room at one point, now ive got to go for CBT councelling. Its getting out of hand. Never ending nightmare. Thanks for being so supportive over the last few months, no one else has helped like you. I hope you enjoy your vacation.

Always
Julesx

Hello Kitt and thanks.

I am seeing a CBT therapist tomorrow but I will check the link.

Again
Thanks!

Jules

HI Kitt, will do!

Thanks for your replied as always, so much appreciated.

Jules

Hi Dencha long time no speak. I hope you had a good vacation, taking each day as it comes hun, I hope your feel better now. Thanks x

Hi Jules,
How are things on the other side of the big pond? Are you feeling better and back to creating your wonderful works of art? I surely hope so! We had a wonderful vacation with our two sons the end of June/beginning of July. When we came back we began to work seven days a week getting our house ready to sell. It was a LOT of work!

I think all our hard work has paid off, though. Fingers and toes crossed, we have an offer after only about a week. The best thing is that the buyers don't need to sell their house. We had an inspection yesterday, and it went really well. According to the buyers agent, everything looked great and they aren't going to ask us to fix anything. Now we just have to get a mortgage appraiser agree that the house is worth what the buyers want to pay for it.

Hopefully all goes well! Until everything is signed at the closing, you can never be sure. We're having a townhouse built nearby where our two sons live--just about an hour from where we live now. In the meantime, we'll need to find an apartment to live in until it's built. I still have to work the year here, so it'll be interesting!

How are you doing, my friend? I hope you're feeling well.
Thanks so much for checking in here. I've missed you!
Take care and keep in touch!
Denise

AG, I have read through your thread and feel so happy for the fact that at least you GI system seems to be physically ok.

I know a thing or 2 about how the mind affects things. I was diagnosed with general anxiaty disorder because I thought that at any point I was going to fall over dead due to the "mystery" symproms I was dealing with for the last 11 years. This all stemmed from silent symptoms of GERD that caused me palpitations due to an inflamed and eroded esophogus. The doctors wont admit that the palps were because of that but they cant tell me what I feel, inside my body. Any ways, I used to get really bad panic attacks and that would agrivate the acid  and my stomach. I too had fears of cancer because I knew that the sores in my esophogus could eventually lead to that if I didnt have surgery. At the time I had to self diagnose my self and kind of knew what I had but didnt know what surgery it was that I needed. The thing bout cancer though is that it will come up on Xrays since its composed of dead thick tissue cells. I became so mentally obsessed with the thought that I had cancer that I would end up at the emergency room after having a panic atack knowing that they would xray my chest and that would put me at ease when the xray came back all clear.....the mind can be terrible at times.

Here I am going on 5 weeks post op and though I'm still in manageable pain, I have no symptems of GERD any more, thank god. You hang in there and remember that the body likes to produce acid when under stress. This is because the fight or flight instinct kicks in and the body needs to brun what ever food is left in the stomach to use as fuel in order to deal with the stressor at hand.

No I'm not a medical professional but unfortunatly I have spent plenty of time, years actually, on the internet researching and trying to diagnose myself.

Best wishes,
Rafael

Hi Jules--my dear friend from over the big pond!
It's been too long since we've chatted. So sorry to hear that you're still struggling, but knowing what's going on is half the battle. It's amazing, isn't it--how your mind can control your body so. I have mitral valve prolapse, and before I knew what it was, whenever I got palpitations I got faint and felt like I was going to pass out. Once I had the echocardiogram and found it was not dangerous, it never bothered me again. Go figure.

We sold our house, and I think we've found an apartment we can stand for 9 months while I finish my school year. We'll move in the beginning of October. We just met with our builder, and he's starting the townhouse next week. He wants us to go pick out our kitchen cabinets, and some other things next week, since I guess the framing configuration will depend on some of those items. It's pretty exciting. Thanksgiving and Christmas will be strange without having a house to celebrate with the kids. Oh well. Next year. I don't we'll have a tree this year (it had to be artificial because of allergies). Planning on getting rid of our tree, and getting a new one next year.

Thanks for checking in and saying hi. Glad you're finding help at the anxiety forum.
Take care, Jules.
Denise

Hi Jules12345,
Thanks for your nice note. I hope you find out what's causing your problems soon. You're in a good place when you're visiting this forum. Everyone here helped me so much! I'm sure you'll continue to get lots of information and support.
Take care,
Denise