Catlady,
I responded to your other post. Remember when reading other member's experiences, we are all individuals and that means each of us heals at different rates and have our own unique problems so try not to let what you read scare you.
The members here are sharing their own experiences and that does not mean it will be the same as yours or yours the same as theirs.
Please go slowly and keep yourself busy to keep your mind off worrying.
Kindly,
Kitt