lpr cobblestoning

got oto notes today he said i have an abnormal hypopharynx with lots of cobblestoning. when i saw him he never mentioned it. i told the nurse i am not going to pay them if they are not going to help. he basically copied the gi notes in his summary saying i have a normal duodenum and intact wrap. and the oto knows this how..by copying the gi doc notes then he referred me back to the gi doc. they send me back and forth. today i put my foot down and said you are the ent my throat is red, hurts, cobblestoned, etc. fix it or i aint paying. may be rude but i am tired of these guys collecting big paychecks and copying notes. reality is they cannot fix it because they cannot arrest the reflux completely..i know this but this clown said the globus was caused by the nissen. really. i had it before the nissen, then it went away after the nissen now its back. his statement holds no truth. maybe im just angry and bitter but i have been nearly suicidal about all this. these drs. are going to fix it or they arent getting paid..or at least be honest and try..no more crap. i cannot believe an ent does not understand the mucous is from the burned/irritated throat..for some as our wonderful moderator has stated it can be from anxiety. for me its 90 percent throat 10 anxiety. does anyone else have a cobblestoned throat..any luck on healing it. thanks and sorry for the attitude. im just tired of these docs who dont understand basic anatomy and well documented lpr symptoms. many still dont even know what lpr is

thanks. meeting with a surgeon in 2 weeks and my gi doc next week. i fall in that category if i did not have a wrap they would offer it, but since its intact its risky. my luck theyd take it down and pop a hole in my esophogus. im doing my best started an antidepressant, but ive taken it before with some results..its not perfect..ive recently lost my job..great and to boot 5 months ago after using a suppository for help with constipation i developed this urge to urinate like 20-30 times a day. im exhausted, cant sleep, worried, etc. i was scheduled for interstim yesterday but cancelled it as im not sure i can handle another surgery that is not more than 50 50. i wish i had diabetes or hi blood pressure so i could take a pill or insulin. but i suppose those people have similar wishes. thx for hanging in with me

Hey Joe,

 

Kudos to you for asking for what you need - help and no more run around from the Drs.

I am sorry that you are experiencing these troubling issues at the moment. I understand that level of fear that you are feeling right now, and I know that it is miserable.

Positive self-talk when you’re feeling anxious also counteracts the common tendency to do the opposite: to berate one's self with a barrage of negative statements.  This is one I use a lot and here is one example I use when my mind wants to wandere into "what if?" thinking - " I will stay in the present moment and notice everything good around me."

Keep on being your own best advocate and know that coming here and sharing your concerns and feelings is a good thing - we all need a safe place to express ourselves and you are safe here with us.

I will keep you in my prayers and hope your upcoming appointments go well.  Also I am sorry to hear of the loss of your job and I believe this is weighing heavily on your mind right now. 

I sense that you are a strong person going through a really tough time but keep on believing that you will get better.  I know what it feels like to think you will never recover but with help we will. 

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt