erica,I do understand exactly how you feel - it is hard to be tough all the time when what you really want is a break and to just feel good. It is sometimes so easy, when we are feeling a bit weaker physically and mentally, to start to “become” our illness.
Chronic illness and injury can rob us of our hopes and dreams – if we let it. My biggest battle is major depressive disorder and somedays I feel that I am losing to this nasty mental health disorder. For me, I need to look past my depression and anxiety to see the person I really am inside. I am not my disorder I am a person with a mental health dx, GERD, Hypertension, Raynaud's phenomenon and recently added Hyperlipidemia.
I am fortunate that my GERD seems to be OK using medication but I do suspect that I am about ready for an UGI scope as I have never had one and have been having some stomach discomfort - but whatever I have to do I will get er done !
I let the tears out when I am feeling bad and wish I could be " normal" but I know this is my normal.
You will make it erica but remember we are always here for venting and to offer support and caring as we understand.
Gentle Hugs,
Kitt