Good luck to you friendlygal. I do believe the bulimia I have is quite mild. I have never been sick violently or forced myself that way. I think that I also think about
it too much and its the nerves that sometimes allows the food to come up. I can just think about
it and my food will come up. I never put my fingers down my throat. I used to but that was about
10 years ago.
Since finding this forum last week I have changed the way I eat. I eat my oatmeal in the morning and then in the afternoon about 2pm I will eat another meal, either brown bread with a healthy soup and a healthy bar of fig and melon. I also have smoothies made up of only fresh fruit. Now if I dont think about what I eat, I can keep it down.
After eating quite a large bowl of carrot, sweet potatoe and parsnip soup and 2 slices of dry brown bread I felt really full, so I took a bath and massaged the stomach area. My stomach was making all sorts of noises. When I got out I occupied myself and come 6pm I was hungry again and I was able to keep my afternoon meal down. I didnt have anything to eat after 6 because I know Im not that active so I just drank water and I felt really pleased with myself.
I think sometimes its what we think that is wrong with us that causes us to have these thoughts that I must be ill or I need to throw up. I know with myself being bulimc is psychological.
At the moment I do struggle with the feeling of being full and being hungry because I am never sure if I am hungry at all or whether its my mind playing tricks with me. This is what I need to learn and also I need to unlearn the things that I believe were right for my body which obviously weren't.
But I will be going to the doctors on Monday to explain whats going on. If I can stick to this change of diet that I am on then I know its a good start for me. I am so used to eating rubbish, like lots of sugar and chocolate and I was constantly eating sweets and drinking coke. I do have a headache at the moment and have had it a few days but I think I am just withdrawing from not eating the sugar that my body is so used to.
Good luck at the doctors this week friendlygal. Let me know what he/she says.
love to you all, Jacqui. x x x x