The Where in the World is Bill Column Part 2 0f 3

Denise -
I am the same way. Sitting around makes me feel worse I swear! Then again doing to much doesn't help either. What a double edged sword! Unfortunately We have 3 machines and only 2 mechanics most of the time, so I will have to do one at least. I know I will be sore tomorrow, but I if I take some ibuprophen before work I think it won't be too bad. If it is I have a few of my other pills to take when I get home. I have tried to stretch and lift the way I do at work this weekend and it wasn't too bad, but I wasn't dealing with a very sharp slippery blade either. I do promise to be very careful and if it hurts too much the first time I will ask for my partners help.
A little story about work ... We have to wear company clothing that is issued every night to us. They ladies in career clothing pretty much remember our sizes and such and have them waiting for us when we come in. I am down 2 pant sizes and a shirt size also, so I am going to confuse them badly tonight.
Have you tried steak yet? I almost did this weekend, but chickened out. I have had such a hard time with solid meats the last 3 years I just avoid them.

Bea, hope you are having a blast on your vacation. I am sure you are eating anything and everything you shouldn't be!

Take care,
Bill

Bill,
You're probably at work by now, so I guess I'll say...hope you had a good night! Now you've got all of your cheerleaders worrying about those sharp, heavy blades! I hope everything went well, and you're not too sore.

Yes, I've eaten steak, with no problem! I do take small bites, and don't swallow anything that isn't thoroughly chewed. I won't swallow grizzle, etc...just politely remove it! Honestly, I'm pretty much eating anything I want. I've just got to be careful about how I chew it up. I even have eaten bagels, which I figured I'd never be able to eat again! I've actually got to start being careful...I can tell I put on a few pounds on vacation!

Barb,
My stomach is still bad, but I think it's improving a bit. It seems happier with food in it than when it's empty. Hopefully it'll continue to improve. I'm going to have to be careful with what I eat and drink. That's not easy for me...I'm always tempted to eat "whatever".

So sorry to hear about your sadness. It's so hard to lose someone who's close. You keep wanting to fix it...to make things right, and get your loved one back. It's so frustrating to know that there's nothing you can do to make it right. You can take comfort in all the good times you had, and the memories you treasure.
Have a good night and sleep well!

Kitt,
I'm going to try to get on the forum as much as possible, but my husband and I are doing a lot of work cleaning out and packing up things in our house. We're going to have to have a giant moving sale, or give lots of stuff away. We're moving into a townhouse, which doesn't have much space for our things. We have too much in this house, and have to get rid of a lot of it just to show the house when we put it on the market. We're painting, too, which means moving everything, etc. So if you don't see me around as much, that's why. I'm with your in spirit, and will get on whenever I can.

Bea...you're obviously having lots of fun on your vacation! Party on!

Janice,
We're all still thinking of you...hope you're doing well. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way!

By all...have a wonderful week!
Denise

Well I made it through the night. I got the better of the blades, but am feeling it a lot now. Unfortunately the rib nerve pain I had been without since this surgery is back in full force now. Guess I will have to schedule another block. At least it has been 3 months this time. I am off to bed....I remember why I hate 3rd shift now.

Take care,
Bill

Barb,

Aaaaahhh sweetie, I have had those same kinds of dreams and have on occasion woke up in tears when they were about my son and I realize he has been gone almost 20 years now. 

I tried the cukes once and my hubby laughed at me saying I looked like a salad.  No support.  LOL.

You take care of you now and let yourself feel and grieve for your friend.  It is a sad loss and it will take time but do hold on to your memories of the good times you shared.

Denise,

Moving, the word sets my teeth on edge.  I have a hubby who never, I mean never throws anything out.  We have a rather large pole shed full of "stuff".  I know he has 2-3 of the same tool as when he cannot find the one he knows he has we buy a new one. 

I wish you the best of luck in selling your home.  I would move to a town home too but no way will my hubby move.  Not unless he could bring his pole shed.

Bill

Glad to hear you made it through your shift but sorry to learn of your nerve pain is kicking up a fuss.

My hubby worked swing shift and he switched shifts every week which was hard on his body.  He hated 11 PM to 7 AM shift too and for that week I always stayed out of his way.  He is a light sleeper so he never rested well that week.   One of the reasons why he took the early retirement when it was offered.

As for me I am fine and will stay in the moment and not get hung up in anxietyville. 

Ya all have a grand day.

Hugs
Kitt

Hi everyone, I don't even know where to start! Kitt, how are you feeling? Is your heart feeling a little easier yet? I hope so, and if not, don't rush it, but know we are here to support you as you do us.
Barb, It seems like life is piling up on top of you right now, I'm sorry that it's so rough. I don't have carpal tunnel but I have issues with my wrists fro the constant computer work. My chiropractor works on them and it helps me; but I'm not in the league that you're in when it comes to pain that way.

Hi PA Lady, it sure is nice that you're here with us now! Like some of you, I have herniated disks, annular tears, all of the nonsense in the spine; I have a good pain specialist and I rely on rhizotomies. They work for me and it cuts down on the meds..big time

I think the biggest pain would be moving though, Denise! oh my. I think I'd rather just die and be buried in the basement instead of moving again. I'll send a moving guardian angel your way to look over you!

Bea, my back supporter (haha!!) I hope you enjoyed your vacation!

Bill, I'm back to eating crackers and toast myself; since March I think maybe earlier, I've had problems with digesting (or lack thereof) when I eat. My doc told me it's one of the side effects from the Nissen. Everything got so much worse after I got sick last winter. He started me on bentyl which is really helping the squawking hiccups! hoorayy! but the have to run to the bathroom everytime I eat is really getting old. I am getting to where I just don't wan t to eat anymore.

When the whole grow the alien in the breast thing came along, I started eating a lot more and did put on weight, but always running to the bathroom has slowed the eating way down; at least I've lost 6 of the 14 pounds I gained and I'm still below my surgical weight!! I think I may try digestive advantage; it's mostly a probiotic...it can't hurt!...right???

Don't hurt yourself at work Bill!!

I'm having lots of trouble accessing the site. Keep crashing. Then using an alternate application, have trouble staying logged in. I just wrote a post and went to submit it and got the page saying I wasn't logged in. When I returned the post was gone! GRRR!

Anyway, saying hello to everyone. Anyone else having trouble? My computer isn't having difficulty with any other site that I know of.

PaLady

Good afternoon all,

Bill, I am glad you are doing ok at work.  Remember to be gentle with your ribs................Ballgames this weekend, right?

Denise, Are only brand newhome was the one we are in and we moved in here in 1984 so hubby could have the big pole shed.  What was I thinking??  Your townhome sounds wonderful.

Bea, you just keep on having a grand ole time on the road.  Hugs to you and stay safe.

PAlady, It has been reported to administration that some people are having trouble accessing the site and getting bumped off.  I see this morning we had a problem with a missing key error report.  Well it looks like the key has been found.

Janice,  I am fine sweetie, not to worry.  Thanks to you I am off to have my mammo this afternoon.  My last one was in 2005, now how did that much time go by? 

You keep right on with your plans to select a new surgeon and then say adios to your old one.  I've got your back.

Barb, I am right here for you and I do understand how you just cry at the thought of your friend.  He must have been really a wonderful person. 

One  really great way to help get through feeling sad and lonely is to be around other people who loved your friend like you do. It is always good to be around people who care about you and cared  about your friend.

It is totally okay to feel sad for a while but just remember that life moves on and that your friend will always be watching over you from above, like your own gaurdian angel.

For now just remember all the great times you had together, ones that you will never forget. And remember, it is okay to cry.   I am truly  sorry for your loss and your pain.

I really save these lyrics for special occasions and I think this is one.  My son, who died, was a huge fan of Michael Jackson and on the anniversay of my son's death I always take the music out to the cemetery and play a song that I think suits Todd.  I picked this one out the year it was made and it became my favorite.  Little did I know I would be seeing it on national news this week.  The lyrics touch my heart but after I shed some tears for my son I always feel better.

In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tripulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.

My love and prayers to you Barb and to all my dear friends and peers here in HW.

Kitt

{{{{{{{{Barb}}}}}}} Healing thoughts and prayers for peace are being sent your way.

Hi everyone, it's hard to keep up with all the posts!, but I'm thinking of all of you.
Janice

Hi Kitt, that is so touching. I'm sorry about your son. I can't even imagine losing a child. My wonderful friend and massage therapist lost her son about 10 years ago and it is still hard on her when that time of year comes around. I thank God every day for bringing my son home from Iraq and I pray he never has to go again. I cry every time a young Marine is lost as i know there is a mom out there who has lost a beloved son. I used to listen to MJ in the early 80's. I loved the Thriller song, Bad & Billy Jean. I have a cassette tape with those songs on it. I did pretty good today until I accidently dialed my best friend from when I lived in Iowa for 10 years and she called me back and I had to tell her about Rob. I told her we need to keep in better touch as life is so short.

Rob actually could be quite a prima donna at times, but that was just Rob. Our friends from highschool and I were talking about the way he could be at times and laughing about it on Monday night. Some one that got up and spoke at the funeral talked about how he was always fashionably late by 2 hours and we all had to laugh at that because it was oh so true. Even the minister commented on the fact that he was on time for once because he had been at the church before any one else. He opened his heart to so many people and even though he was in such pain with all the problems from the diabetes and staff infections he just kept on plugging along and trying to enjoy life as much as he could. I was telling his cousin how he had insisted on making meals for me and my husband for a week after my surgery even though his was half blind, in pain and wheel chair bound. She said he wouldn't have it any other way. Sorry to ramble on so much.

Well my pain doctor's nurse for my tailbone finally called back this afternoon and he is gone all week. She told me just to talk to him next week when i see him about a second injection and she said they wouldn't do it in the same OR room any way because they don't need it as sterile as they do for the hand surgery. She then said he wouldn't be able to any way because I would have to be off my plavix for a week and I told her I was allready off it for the hand surgery so then she said he might consider it because of that. She said maybe he could do it earlier in the morning. She asked if I was taking my pain meds for my tailbone because it's waking me up after 6 hours in bed. The meds are actually for my back and I hadn't taken them for a while. I'm going to have to hit the sheets soon as I did end up taking a vicadin and muscle relaxor as my back is really killing me tonight. And it's starting to kick in. It's from hauling all the stuff out for our popcorn/soda stand and bending over to put the stakes into ground for our awning. I hope I sleep good tonight.

Janice thanks. I am feeling much better today and thinking about all the fun things I did with Rob. Hi to every one else tonight and hope you all have a great night. Barb

 

PAlady, nope he certainly was no saint but he loved me and accepted me the way I am and I did the same for him. I couldn't have asked for a more caring loving friend. He really blessed my life and the others around him. The thing about having the 2 procedures done at the same time would be great because I have to be off my plavix for both and I'll have been off it for a week at that point. They don't like to take you off that more than they have too. We'll see what the doc says on Tuesday. I guess I'll have to get a walk in freezer so I can just store my bike in there until I'm ready to ride

Barb 

I probably won't even need ice for that since I'll be on pain killers for my hand. The first 24 hours were the worse and it got better from there. I sure hope between the hand surgery and the tailbone injection I get rid of some of my chronic pain.

I wonder how Bill is doing? I sure hope he's doing ok with all that lifting.

Take care every one. I am off to my part time every other weekend job that I hate! I hate 3rd shift but at least I don't have to deal with the residents as much. I never would have lasted there 15 years if I was on days. Barb

Bill,
The computer thing must be contagious! But mine seems to be working ok tonight - so far! Keeping my fingers crossed. At least I'm not crashing everytime I try to read a post!

The Nexium seems to be helping. Gosh, I'm taking enough of it! The heartburn in my chest is significantly better, but what I notice more is periodic acidic taste in my mouth and kind of in my throat. But it's not all the time. Now I have to figure out if it's food related, but gosh I've been eating so bland it's driving me crazy! I just took my nighttime dose about an hour ago and I'm hungry and want a snack but then I've got to stay up! Maybe I'll just have something to drink. It seems some of the soy protein drinks - especially the blueberry - are ok. I've been avoiding all the citrus ones, but I really miss them. I love OJ and other citrus blends.

Hopefully, I'm on track to some improvement. I have the discount card from Astro Zeneca, but still have to find a way to pay for the nexium. A $50 discount I don't think is going to do it. I don't know how much it is, but I'm guessing expensive. And I'm taking 40mg twice/day. It was a heck of a time to lose my insurance! I'm going to try getting some insurance based on income, but there's no Rx plan.

You take care of yourself, Bill. That job sounds pretty hard on the body!

Wishing everyone else a good weekend. At least it has finally warmed up here!

PaLady