Out of control

Please let me start with why I am here.  I was assaulted several months ago and have been experiencing non-stop anxiety, worry and fear ever since.  The anxiety comes from fear of disease from the assault.  I have been tested repeatedly and so far, so good, but what happens is that every time I get close to the end of a waiting period for the next test, something always happens to throw me back into full panic and anxiety.  For example, I went to get labwork done yesterday and have been comsumed by fear that the technician used a dirty needle.  Another example is that I have been washing my hands so much after touching things, they peel from all the soap and water.  I am consumed with this anxiety.  It has ruined relationships in my life and I feel like I am losing it.  I have seen 2 psychologists that had intended to send me to a psychiatrist, but I got so upset with both of them for not addressing the problem at hand and rather wanting me to talk about my childhood, parents, etc. (which were normal) and charge me for that instead of the current problem.  Can anyone suggest a good prescription I can try for anxiety.  My gp put me on Lexapro and that made the problem so much worse I can't even begin to tell you how bad it really was.  Thanks for your time and responses.

I was on 10mg of Lexapro and it made my anxiety so much worse than before I started taking it.  I also had suicidal thoughts constantly.  I am not on anything right now, but for my family's sake, I think I should be.  My children have noticed a change in me and I don't want them to experience anything like this so I try to put on a smile and go on with the day.  Thank you so much for your kind words, I was at such a loss this morning. 

Hello everyone.

I got my results back - *negative* YEAH! 

I am trying very, very hard to let the worry go about the needle used for the test and I realize this is a demon I cannot fight alone.  I am making the appt. with my doctor (a wonderful man who has held my hand through this whole ordeal) to get on medication for anxiety.  Thank you all so much for helping me.  I felt isolated, alone and terrified. 

I do have a question for you, though.  Lately, I  have noticed my blood pressure is always high (where it was low before).  When I say high, I mean the other day while at rest, it was 190/100.  Is this most likely caused by the anxiety alone?