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Posted 6/16/2008 8:56 PM (GMT 0)
I forgot to mention my problems. Duh! hehe. Anyway, I suffer with Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, Massive Depressive Disorder, An unnamed Eating Disoreder, Acid Reflux, IBS, and some more crappy stuff. I am currently on Paxil 40 mgs a day. I am supposed to be on Nexium but I still haven't got that filled yet. not enough money now. Anyway that's the bad stuff. I think it's kinda cool how I forgot to mention the bad in my first reply. That's got to be some sort of improvement!! Yay!!!!
Posted 6/17/2008 2:09 AM (GMT 0)

Thank you so much for sharing with us.  We are very happy to have you with us and please know you are an assest to our forum.

Kitt

Posted 6/17/2008 8:58 AM (GMT 0)
Tootie! Don't feel guilty about the xanax. I rely on that sometimes too, we do what we do! Thanks for sharing

Posted 6/17/2008 4:24 PM (GMT 0)
I've been a member here for a while and cannot imagine what my anxiety would be like now if I hadn't found this site and all the supportive people here.

I'm 46 years old and live in Missouri and have been living with anxiety for several years now.  It started when I had some severe health issues back in 2004/2005.  I take Xanax twice a day to try to keep it under control.  I am allergic to antidepressants so do alternative therapies such as relaxation and CBT to help ease the physical symptoms of my anxiety.

I am a twin and my twin sister just moved back here after living 12 years in Europe (Holland).  I used to love to travel to visit her several times a year but now it is sooooo much better than she only lives minutes away.  I have to admit some of my anxiety was caused by the separation from her.

I am an aunt to three nephews (two living) and two nieces and they are my world.  I never thought I'd get the opportunity to ever be an aunt and then all the sudden there was the first nephew and now five kids total.  It's such a wonderful thing.  We did lose one of my nephews when he was only 4 years old and that was the HARDEST thing I have ever been thru in my life.  He was a gift from God and we know that he is now doing all the things up in heaven that he couldn't do here.  He was the light of my life and I miss him dearly every day.

I work in a hospital in the medical records department.  I am single.  My parents will be celebrating their 48th wedding anniversary next week.

That's me in a nutshell.  My family is my life and now with you all I have a second family.

Posted 6/21/2008 8:34 PM (GMT 0)
All newbies tell us a bit about you, as little or as much as you would like. We are just so happy to have you here and want you to feel right at home.

Hugs
The A & P Moderator Team
Posted 6/21/2008 8:59 PM (GMT 0)
Hi , Everyone in Healing well

thanks for setting this thread up Kitt , looked yesterday but didn't see it . Only found your forum yesterday ,
yet have already really nice responses. I am begining to feel comfortable here. I joined because of the honcode,
my past first floundering steps on the net were not comfortable , there are some creepy sites out there .
I live in Europe , and am a chronic depression sufferer , having had several really severe episodes, I now manage things better, am desperately shy , but thanks to a response here , it is possible I may suffer from social anxiety .

I can spend days without wanting to go out or seeing anyone . Luckily I have a nice job , otherwise I would never leave the house . beauty makes me very emotional , love being amongst the trees in my garden.
love the stray cats who come to visit , as well as all the other animals , birds and insects who care to use my wild bit of land.

looking forward to getting to know folks here . thanks for reading.

dejavu
Posted 6/21/2008 11:21 PM (GMT 0)

dejavu,

That was lovely and I am so happy to have you with us.  You are a ray of sunshine.  We are family here so feel comfortable in speking up.  We respect everyone's opinions and support all.  We do not judge.

There is something comforting about baring your soul to the members of HealingWell and still being able to be anonymous.

I hope you stay with us. The miracle of your existence calls for celebration every day.

Again a warm welcome to you.

Gentle Hugs

Kitt


 

Posted 6/22/2008 3:04 PM (GMT 0)
I totally agree with Kitt on this

We have a great family here..........

Support........Caring.......and
Unconditional
Understanding and Acceptance......

Pleae do stay with us ...........

Thanks for sharing............LYN
Posted 6/24/2008 4:12 AM (GMT 0)

Bump to the top for new members of the past couple of days..........Please share a bit about yourself and know we all love to welcome new members.

Your Moderator Team

Lyn...( howlyncat)
Kitt...( Lil sis )
Nervymeg ( S.I.S.)
Jordan (Sista J)
Freezing ( Dave) (Cowboy)

Posted 6/24/2008 10:53 PM (GMT 0)
Hi! I'm new, just joined today and posted my first post asking for some advice.

I'm a 20 year old college student who has been dealing with anxiety/depression since I was 14.
My anxiety was pretty bad at first, I had to be homeschooled for 3 months because although I was able to enter the school building, I was too afraid to enter the classroom. My anxiety came out of the blue. At the end of my freshman year (when I first started dealing with it) I was able to go back to classes. Along the way I had a few bumps, but for the most part I have been pretty anxiety free. I have been able to go to college and sit in lecture halls of 200+ people (something I never thought I could).

I have recently had some trouble with anxiety again. I still need to sit in aisle seats in crowded areas, so I don't feel trapped. I have had trouble with sitting in large, quiet crowds (sounds like an oxymoron right? lol) for example, at my school orientation we had to all sit in the school stadium (which is huge) and we were all quiet and I felt trapped in the middle. So during the orientation I got up and stood off to the side of the stadium. I have been also getting anxiety at night recently (which I write about in the first post I did) which is why I decided to check this out.

My main concern is slipping back into anxiety/depression again after being so successful in overcoming it.
Posted 6/24/2008 11:20 PM (GMT 0)

emuchicky,

Hello and welcome to HaelingWell and the A & P Forum.  I am so glad you found us and I am sure you will find your needs met in our forum. We have some wonderful members and we all know where your coming from and what your going through.

Thank you for the introduction and I will be reading your post next.

Again a warm welcome.

Kitt

Posted 6/24/2008 11:49 PM (GMT 0)

Dear Jen,

Welcome to HealingWell, this is Kitt.  Everyone really does not know exactly what is wrong with them as you will see when you start to read.  That is one of the reasons we have this forum.  Members experience sx that are frightening and they don't know why, they are looking for answers and trying to figure out why this is happening to them.  You fit right in with the rest of us so I hope you will find comfort here.

Please keep posting and welcome to our world.

Hugs

Kitt

Posted 6/29/2008 6:01 AM (GMT 0)
Hi All,

I just wanted to bump this wonderful thread as we have so many new members who might like to know who we are, and share a bit about who they are, and what they are going through.

I already had my spot in the limelight but just hog it some more ( :-) ) I have panic/anxiety disorder (which can can be severe and then sometimes, blessedly, almost absent) IBS (I am waiting on tests for crohns - my doc thinks it may be eyes ) and am a recovering alcoholic. I am also a very happy HW member who is extremely grateful for all the support I get. I hope you all feel comfortable to share just a little bit about yourself.

Meg
Posted 6/29/2008 3:34 PM (GMT 0)

Our Swet Megs forgot to mention she is a Moderator on this forum and she is kind and caring and always here to offer you a gentle hug or really wise support.

We love ya Megs.

Kitt

Posted 6/30/2008 2:06 AM (GMT 0)
oopsie, yep, I'm a moderator too, thanks sweet Kitt tongue
Posted 6/30/2008 6:30 PM (GMT 0)
It is FANTASTIC to see all the posts and ppl really letting their hair down
Sharing themselves with us

YES this is a wonderful FAMILY and the ppl on this forum make it so ...........

I do hope that the new ones that have not posted will do so if they care to

Welcome to ALL the new members
YOU have now got a family here
And are not alone anymore

Moderators of A/P  and members
Posted 7/2/2008 8:31 PM (GMT 0)
Bringing up for new members if they want to post

Hoping they do ...........

LYN
Posted 7/6/2008 11:06 AM (GMT 0)
Greetings and salutations.

My name is Leslie a/k/a Texan.

I suffer from Crohn's Disease AND panic disorder. I usually post over in the CD forum; however, my nerves have been so shot of late, I thought I should come over here and a) introduce myself and b) get familiar with my panic malady. What cinched it was my last visit into the doctor. I knew I was having a panic attack and I could feel my heart racing to the point my chest hurt and my hands were shaking BUT when the nurse took my blood pressure she had a nervous look on her face, so I asked what it was (usually in the upper 90s). It was at 160! Okay. It's been 15 years since I had bad panic attacks. Now they are back at defcon level 1 - full force.

My doc put me on an antidepressant and a light sleeping aid when I told him my mind was racing too much to sleep and told him what all was going on with my CD and work. Not sure what good an antidepressant will do, but I trust him so I am taking them. Not seeing much of a difference, but i am sleeping now for a full 7 - 8 hours, unlike before where the usual was 3 - 4 tops.

My entire family is very high-strung and come to find out everyone in my family is on a anti-panic medication! Did not know this.

Anyways, that's my story. I am taking things one day at a time. I will be coming over here a bit more hopefully to learn how I can control stress and keep my panic attacks under control. When they get bad my CD gets worse.

Today I am going to go ride my horse out on some trails... that ALWAYS calms me down. I just hope my horse doesn't feel my stress (she usually does) and then becomes stressed herself. Funny how animals can feel when someone is tense.

Thanks for allowing me to introduce myself. Best wishes to all of you.
Posted 7/6/2008 2:41 PM (GMT 0)

Well Howdy Leslie,

Welcome to the A & P forum. I am Kitt.  We are glad to have you.  My hubby has Crohn's and in fact he just went out to take his horse for a ride, his iron horse that is.  I think he needs to let off some stress to, after all he lives with me............. redface

Panic attacks are very real and scary so I am going to post my recipe for how you might try to handle your fears during a panic attac:

Remember this:

It does not matter if you feel frightened, disorientated, dreamlike, or unsteady. These feelings are an exaggeration of the normal bodily reactions to stress.

Just because you have these sensations doesn't mean you are crazy. These feelings are just unpleasant and frightening, not dangerous. Nothing worse will happen to you.

Let your feelings come. . Don't run away from panic. When you feel panic build up, take a deep breath and as you breathe out, let go. Keep trying. Stay there almost as if you were floating in space. Don't fight the feeling of panic. Accept it; you can deal with it.

Try to make yourself as comfortable as possible without escaping. If you're on a street, lean against a post or a store wall. If you're at the cosmetics department of a store, find a quieter counter or corner. If you're in a boutique, tell the salesperson you don't feel well and want to sit for a while. Do not jump into a car and go home in fear.

Don't indulge in stinkin thinking, "Why can't I be normal ? Why does this have to happen to me?" Just accept what is happening to you. If you do this, what you fear most will not happen.

Think about what is really happening to your body at this moment. Do not think "Something terrible is going to happen. I must get out." Repeat to yourself "I am ok, I will not die or lose control."

Try to distract yourself from what is going on inside you. Look at your surroundings. See the other people around you. .They are with you, not against you.

When the panic subsides, let your body go loose, take a deep breath, and go on with your day. Remember, each time you cope with panic and anxiety, you reduce your fear.

Posted 7/6/2008 9:17 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks for your kind words of wisdom, Kitt.

I just got back from my trail ride and I feel WONDERFUL! As long as my health holds I plan on riding every Sunday. What a difference it makes to my overall well-being. One of the girls noticed I was not talking, just riding along. She asked if I was okay. I turned and smiled real big and said I am in heaven. (even though my horse who hadn't been ridden in a while due to my health was acting like a maniac!!) This is better than meditation by far. :) I am a happy camper right now. I feel like I can conquer anything negative thrown my way!!

-Leslie a/k/a Texan
Posted 7/7/2008 1:58 AM (GMT 0)
HEY Leslie

So sorry you have to be here too but at least you know now hun you are welcome and never alone in this

We have numerous Crohnies on board here

Hoping you will pop over more and thanks sweetie for posting in this thead
Glad you finally let it all out

Luvs
LYN
Posted 7/7/2008 10:59 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks! Ya know, this is the only place I will "let it all out." I keep all my health issues between these boards and mysef, as I am the healthiest member of my family and am the care giver. I have a mentally/phisically disabled 39 year-old sister, whom I do all her shopping and pay all her bills, I have a 94 year old grandmother that we jokingly say that she will out live us all. She lived with me until she fell and was then moved against her will to a nursing home. I am in and out of that place checking on her and doing all her shopping and errands. Both parents' health is less than great, so I a) play down my illnesses and b) constantly visit them to make sure they are not overdoing it at their house. The doctors are monitoring an aortic aneurysm in my father that is near the burst rate. This frightens the begeebers out of me. He has already made me promise that I will look out for and take care of my mother in the event he doesn't make it through this, which of couse I agreed to. If I can't do for my family, I am not much good. Now, mom, we almost lost her last year. She was on life support for near four months. She introduced to ER with pneumonia, panicked at them trying to put a oxygen mask so they intibated her. She then got hospital-acquired psudomonos, which completely killed one of her lungs. They moved her over to a cabage patch *my words* facility where her health declined and they didn't think she would make it. I wouldn't give up, so I started bringing my daughter around her every day. That did it! She not only made it, she was out of the hospital and home within three weeks. :)

Well, that's my story. I am and will be the family care giver. You kind folks here are the only folks that know my illnesses and I thank you for allowing me the opportunity to come here and vent, seek counsel, etc. You all are WONDERFUL. My second family as I have already been calling you to my family. They ask about this board and I tell them, great people support one another here. It is my sanctuary. They just nodd and acknowledge that I will not give more info about how I am doing. There is no need to put stress on any of them... don't want to end back up in the ER with one of them.

I know, I know - my story reads kinda like a bad county and western song - there's a tear in my beer kinda tune. :-) Life is what you make it. I choose to make life about my family and cherish them while I have them. And I always have my healingwell family to lean on (and I have done that a bunch of late)

Warm and kind regards,

Leslie a/k/a Texan with Crohn's
Posted 7/7/2008 11:16 AM (GMT 0)
ROFLMBO

"There's a Tear In My Beer" is kinda my theme song
Or was when I was drinking

There are those that can and do make fantastic caregivers my friend........you were / are one

I did the same for bith parents till they passed away

Never would I have put them in a home they never deserted me or was ashmed of me at anytime in life that I recall

Mom had a touch of pnuemonia too and was sent home but my lil sister decided to pul down 40 yr old wall paper and paint........not good
Mom was taken to hospital and she was intubated and taken by helicopter to London Hospital where she died the next day....

Dad started to get worse after mom went and his mind was all over the place but he knew he wanted NO part of a NH so I kept him with me
He was also onmachines AGAINST a DNR ( I was so sick and my sister did this to )

On Aporil 17th I had to take him off machines
That ripped me apart but I know they are together once again whole and looking down on me

I really do admire you or any one that can and does look after their parents in home

It is a hard but REWARDING thing t do

Make plenty of memories my friend

Let me know how things are going for you

Luvs
LYN
Posted 7/10/2008 2:14 PM (GMT 0)
HOping newere members will post a lil bout selves

it is great for us to get to know you and you us ..........IMHO.........LYN
Posted 7/12/2008 1:41 PM (GMT 0)
I posted about myself in New Topics--was that the right place?  I'm new to these things!  Thanks
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