Anxiety over HIV fear

Almost four months ago now i placed my hand on a chair in a nightclub where i live and something pricked my hand. I have a major fear of dirty needles. i was in a real state looking up all the hiv symptoms checking my hand constantly for a needle whole.

I got tested at 12 weeks as recommended and started seeing a counsellor.

Ive spoke to two doctors who all tell me theres nothing to worry about the one even didnt think i should go throught the hassle of being tested and he had worked in south africa all his life dealing with HIV patients.

Also HIV counsellors on forums such as this one, and STD counsellors on the telephone all of which saying that i have nothing to worry about.

And yet everytime i become ill or my boyfriend becomes ill or my folks have a cold or something...im panicking because im thinking ive gave them HIV. Ive had a cough for a while and im panicking what if its HIV related and ive had headaches that are all hiv symptoms but i know they are also symptoms of many other things. Yet i cant get this thoguht out of my head.

I think sometimes im being daft and then i'll be thinking but what if im jsut that unlucky.

I saw a counsellor for a while but it didnt seem to help me very much.

Please help...what should i do? im so miserable at the moment.

thanks for reading i know it was a long one.

LilLadyLo,

I can empathise with you. I trod on a needle once at a dance party and was petrified until I got my results back. Even when i knew I was okay i was still a little shakey for a while. It's a big scare.

Try and put it out of your mind, you are not daft! You are human.  I hope you feel a bit less anxious soon. Take care.

Meg

Thanks for the advice.

Its like go through stages, like when i become ill i think omg it must be HIV, and my mother and father having a cough and cold. It me thinking omg i used his razor a couple of weeks ago (even though i asked him and he said he didnt use that razor anyway) and now ive give them all HIV. Its only when i get ill or the people around me get ill that it really bothers me.

Im so tired  of all this, i want to sleep without thinking about it but i cant. Its like now i cant put the incident rationally. I placed my hand on something inside a stool, it was defo inside. Who places a needle inside a nailed down chair, and recovers the chair perfectly just to infect someone... its insane...yet i cant see that. 

ive made an appointment with my doctor. but last time i didnt find that the counsellor helped. she kept going off into my family history when i knew my fear was over HIV but i didnt want to be rude and say.

I feel like im going mad, and i so tired and miserable.