I am not going to pretend to know exactly how you feel, because everybody deals with anxiety/pa differently. My advice is to find something worth challenging your fears. I have had anxiety/pa for 1.5 years now. I have a very good job and after several pa's I strongly thought about quitting my career (that I had worked so hard to achieve) and finding something that is much less stressful and far less paying. Well after much thought, I decided that my children and family need me to keep my job. For this reason I confront my fear (driving in rural area's where there is no hospital within a 100 miles) nearly every day for my family. I also have told myself that if it is something medical and not anxiety (which I know it is anxiety) then just take me, because I am not dealing with this anymore. It helped that I got all of my financial affairs in order in case it did take me. But you know what I come home every night, sometimes very stressed and very tense, but I am fine, and my family is fine and they have food on the table and everything else they need. I agree with everyone else that have talked to you on this forum. Confront it......It is hard to do. But it is a MUST.
CC