Part 3 Coping with PTSD?

Buddha,

Hang on, my friend. These Zoloft after-effects have got to let go of you sometime soon. I'm surely hoping that it's sooner rather than later. Pet the Demon for me - he sounds like a unique companion!

percycat

Demon just woke me up with a racket. A dog wondered into his territory and he just chased it off whimpering. He really is a little demon.

Still not getting much sleep. Fever. Shakes. And the pit definitely has it's ghosts today. At least I'll be in crummy psychological shape for that mental exam tomorrow.

Hugs,
Buddha

Buddha,

I know when I can't sleep I will get up and come into the computer room and see what is going on in HW.

Or I google stuff I may be interested in, like a cruise to Alaska with my hubby............when I get tired I go back to bed.  The cruise is just a memory by morning.

Hang on my friend.

Kitt

Well it was a mental status exam. Don't know if you can flunk one but I'm thinking I just might have. I'm going back to bed, should've never got up in the first place.

Hi Onelove,

It's doesn't really matter what you call it. PTSD can hit you months or even years later. Depression well that's a pit just waiting for anyone to stumble into it. Could be something else entirely. You came here looking for help which is a good thing. I would suggest you pay a visit to your doctor or a qualified counselor. I know that sounds like such pat answer but really face to face is how diagnosis are made. I wish it wasn't, doctor scare the crap out of me.

Welcome to HW,
Buddha

I really hate this not being able to sleep thing. I figure I have another 2 weeks maybe till my system is back to normal. Of course, I see the doctor/nurse tomorrow so I'll be on some more meds that will build up in my system and make me sick ... why I'm I doing this again!? Oh yeah so I can feel better ... <deleted do to absence language and adult content>

Thanks Buddha and TeacherBetsy,

Buddha, I forgot to mention that a Doctor diagnosed me with MDD. I went on Effexor, a high dose and I had suicidal thoughts so I immediately went off of it. Now, I am on a low dose of Prozac 10mg a day and my head feels like its in a vice! Then I think, hey, this doesn't feel good and want to try it on my own and what happens, some bad event occurs and I'm right back in the "black hole" again. So to be honest, I just want to feel good!!!!!

TeacherBetsy,
Thanks for your response as well, I am not seeing a counselor because my husband won't pay for it even though he has great insurance. Just so you get a glimpse sp? of him, when we went to a counseling session, one of a thousand, we've been together 20 yrs, the counselor diagnosed him to be a narcissist, go figure, so he could care a less about the effects his actions have had on me.

Onelove,

Good Morning. This is Kitt.

You could easily be suffering from more then one mental health disorder. 

My oldest sister died on Thanksgiving Day last year so it is a time of year for me too when memories come back of the long 3 week period of flying back and forth to ND and driving from one city to another to have her transferred to a larger hospital.

So I have you in my prayers sweetie and I know you will make it through this.

Have you ever tried the online CBT?  Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.

Here is the link for the free online training program:
The MoodGym Training Program

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/

Just clink on the link.

Keep on  posting as we are here for you.  

Gentle Hugs

Kitt

Actually the electricity is fine this month but next I'll have to cut it because I can't pay for it anymore. Same with water and phone. Next month I dance in the dark.

Well got Micardis today, started it tonight. I found one study that said Micardis can have a 6 fold increase in half-life in moderately hepatic impaired subjects. Not that my hepatic impairment has shown up in blood test yet ... probably won't either. So I take one and check the effect next few days. Hey nurse didn't dictate a dosage so I'll carefully adjust as needed ... just gave me samples.

Oh ... Hydroxyzine kicked in this morning at like 9AM that was fun.

Been following the Flying carpet, Meg.

Good Morning All,
What an election! Wow, I loved both of the candidates speeches!
First, Thank you all for such a warm welcome, you don't know how much it is appreciated.
To Buddha: Finding value in myself hmmmm....... does sound easy, why is it soooooo hard.....very insightful, it takes everything away that you love because that could get you out, made me think.....well as of now I have no hobbies. Back in the day (smile) I used to love tennis, bowling, going to the movies, ect. I will check with my Catholic Church. Thank you so much for the insight and encouragement in a dark time.

To Kitt: I'm so sorry to hear about your sister, truly my prayers go out to you and your family at this time, I have not tried CBT but another person on the depression forum has mentioned something about it also. I am definitely going to try the Moodgym, thank you so much for the information, after this post I am going straight to the website.

To teacherbetsy: Thanks for your support also, I am going to try to convince my husband to send me to a healing weekend retreat, its in Massachusetts sp? it's on Nov.21-23, but the trick is without lying about it. He changes his mind about something at the flick of a switch so I have to be careful, If he knows what the healing retreat is actually for he won't go for it. Your exactly right about too blind to see how blessed his life is..... that is sooooo true.

I am feeling like I don't want to take my medicaiton this morning because when the med wears off my head feels fine but when I take it in the morning again, my head goes back to feeling terrible and in a vice, like there is constant tension. Thanks for listening everyone, I hope that I may be of support to you all too.

Have a great morning,
D

Hi,

Onelove, if your suffering an adverse reaction to your med, contact your doctor they can switch you to something else, lower your dose, recommend a better schedule for taking the med ... all kinds of thing.

Kitt, I looked up Micardis. I know the recommended dosage for healthy people and even hepatic impaired people. This med is eliminated via bile excretion which means with my liver it's going to build up extremely fast. (Actually had some heart fluttering last night after I took it.) I may not need 40mg every day, as is recommended for healthy people. 20mg is the recommended dose for hepatic impaired people to start with and 40mg is the max recommended for hepatic impaired. Normal half-life is 24 hours, with hepatic impaired people that's is 3 times longer. If I can get this med to work one less problem. Not looking to OD, just the opposite, really rather tired of that happening.

I live in Florida.

Hugs,
buddha

Am I going to have to come down that Abyss and haul you out?..I will you know. I quite like speelunking.

IMHO it's better to feel pain than numb..at least it is progress.

Meg