Medication change

Dear Ben,

That has been my prayer many time, " Please make me normal"  I have times when I think, is this what my life has become?

I do not drink and I just tell people that I am sorry I am taking meds and alcohol does not mix with them.

I think your right on track saying no to Pub Hopping this early in the game. I know you feel sad to think you can't go along and just have fun but you will get to the point where you will feel happy with out the alcholol.

Stress and anxiety are seemingly enough to worry about on their own.  So don't fall into the trap of keeping them going.  Keep life in perspecive, keep yourself on an even keel and remember you can control your own mind. If you can remember to do that stress and anxiety will not take over your life.

I have a really good feeling that you will make it through.

Keep talking to us and remember the magic carpet is free of anxiety.

Hugs

Kitt

Ben,

I know how you feel, I have lived through the same kinds of things and I know you are strong.  Remember to go slowly.

I am so sorry about the withdrawal sx.  That is when you just want to go back on the med as you feel so lousy weaning off.

Stay strong.  You have true grit

Hugs

Kitt

Dear Ben,

After being on a benzo for 24 years prescribed by my own physician, my Pdoc decided it was not good for me.........huh?  She said it causes Depression, emotional blunting in long -term benzodiazepine users.  Well gee no one noticed for 24 years and now she wants to take them away so we did a very slow weaning process.....took almost a year as I was on large dose.

During all those years I was on it I worked full time and even ended up in managment. Emotional blunting.....I was fine for many years and then every thing crashed.

I did not feel strong at that time, I was lost, and afraid, crying for someone to help me as they all just looked at me and said you need meds, and therapy and less stress in your life.

I did work my way back, but I still feel the failure and humiliation I felt when I was  crashing.  I try to kick it to the curb but some days I just have to cry.

Do talk to your physician about the med and a slow wean process?  It is safer and you will do better.

Keep on walking, one step at a time.

Gentle Hugs

Kitt

Ben,

I am proud of you for  calling the Doctors office, now take your med and get some into your system so you quit feeling so ill.

I do not know how you get to work feeling so ill.  Please know how much we care.  Having been where you are I understand how you feel.

My Pdoc said the meds caused blunting and I know I was on a large dose but in the end I still have the med and may use it in a small doze as needed. Personally I did not feel blunted. I felt my anxiety decrease. 

Hugs to you my friend and co-pilot.

Kitt