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Hello I am new the the HealingWell boards, my name is Dan and I am a 22 year old college student.

Although I haven't been diagnosed with either I believe I suffer from anxiety and depression.

Hi everyone my name is Dan. I am a 22-year-old senior in college, I am about to graduate in May.

Let me first start off by saying, I have a great life. I have never been abused or had tragedy befall me. However, all of my life I have gone through certain phases where I just feel like life is too difficult for me. Recently I have barely been able to get out of bed. I skip whatever I can (things that won't get me fired or mess with graduation) and I seem to be cutting corners everywhere. In my social life I have either been distant or harsh and plain mean. Everything feels worthless to me and I am easily irritated, I can't bring myself to do the things that I need to do and that makes my anxiety and sadness worse. I have made some very bad decision in my personal life in the past, things that have hurt a lot of people, most had to do with me not being able to control my sexual desires and resulting in cheating on past girlfriends or stealing friends girlfriends. It caused me to lose a lot of respect for myself and I still struggle with it. I also obsessively worry about making these same mistakes again. The other night I laid in bed and thought of everything in my life I had ever done that had embarrassed myself or had hurt others. I could barely move I was overcome with sadness and wanted to vomit. I've been seeking escape everywhere I can, reading and video games mostly, trying to just lose myself in other worlds. I seem to be waiting for something to appear over the horizon that will be better but I logically know it will not come. I fear graduating and have yet to be able to find a job. I just want to be able to see worth in everything. My cynicism and disgust for my life has become a real problem, but another part of myself breathes in the spring air and loves it all so much. I hate feeling like I am out of control of my own life, I am letting my life fall down around me and destroying it from within because I cannot control my emotions. I posted this over at the depression forums but wanted to share it with you all as well.

Thanks. Nice to meet you.

Thanks, Nanners! I really appreciate that. I read about your situation with your daughter, and I sincerely hope she will find a way to see the importance of her relationship with you and with her children. I wish you all the best.

Raniah

SO glad y ou also have shared some of self with us
I can already tell you are caring and your kind words to our sis Nanners were wonderful

I do hope you too will stay with us and become a big part of this lil family we have here.......

Be well and again take care and STAY with us
LUVS
LYN

When I stummbled across HW I was afraid to post
I had never gotten into anything like this
I was taken in with open arms and w/o hesitation
Look at me now lol
Cant keep me away from my family
I luvs/Love em all

WE are so glad you did find us .............Luvs...........LYN

Thank you so much, Kitt. What I find so refreshing right off the bat is how open and accepting people are here. It has made me feel less isolated, which is such a good thing right now.

bubbles

An official warm welcome to Healing Well and the A & P forum.  I am so very happy you joined us.  We love new members.

Stick with us as we are like family here.

Kitt

Hello all new members :)

Just wanted to drop in and let you know that it is nice to see you here!

admiralgeek

Welcome to you and I hope to get the chance to know you better. This is the place to come to meet other with A & P and your so right, this is one disorder that is not fun to have although we do try to have some fun threads going to help us remember that laughter is good medicine.

Jump aboard and consider yourself our newest family member.

Kitt

Hello....I'm new here, My name is Miichelle I'm 40 years old, married with 2 Daughters, I have Muscular dystrophy but don't think thats the cause of my anxiety.

I had my first panic attack in February 2008, maybe I always had a slight degree of anxiety people have always called me highly strung (I stilll don't know what that means) my anxiety is all mainly about my health my fear is dying and leaving my Children without a Mother, I know all Mothers have that fear but, mine is out of control.  I have OCD slightly, I have been through councilling and thought I was cured.....ha-ha I actually believed I was! so I stopped councilling in November.  I had an episode in December Christmas day actually where I made my Husband take me to the hospital because I thought I was bleeding to death internally, I feel guilty about spoiling our Childrens Christmas. I'm affraid to take medication incase it takes away pain from something "real" I think if I take a painkiller for a headache it will dull chest pain and I will miss the warning signs of a heart attack! I'm affraid to take anxiety medications incase I get hooked on it and in the long run it will cause me more problems.  I feak out if I hear about someone dying suddenly, don't want to know about anybodys illnesses because I will convince myself I have it too, I don't want to hear about funerals and force myself not to google pain symptoms because I know where I'll end up....between Feb 08 and Aug 08, I have had (imaginary) eptopic pregnancy, a few heart attacks, closed breathing tube, several cancers, blood clots, aneurysims, shock....these are things I went to the hospital about, I went to my GP for these plus many more ailments such as appendicitus, ovarian cysts ect.

3 weeks ago my anxiety came back its not as bad as before but its getting there, I have chest pain, the sensation my throat is closing, palpertations, a few hot flushes, so far I have managed to calm myself and not run to the hospital but I know its only a matter of days before I need to go there for reassurance, I have an appointment on Tuesday with a Doctor about respitory ailments so I'm hoping I can hold out until then as I know I'll get reassurance for him/her, I had a heart scan last May and that was normal my GP assured me on Monday that I have the heart of a healthy 40 year old....that scan was 11 months ago and now I'm worried something has happened to my heart in those 11 months so I want another heart scan....

My thoughts are constantly on the "what if" what if its not anxiety and theres something really wrong and I'm ignoring it while putting it down to anxiety I've got a responsiblity to my Daughters to be healthy and look after them, am I letting them down?

I feel like I'm getting out of control again, my Husband has been understanding in the past although he always says on our way to the hospital "you know they'll find nothing wrong" but he goes along with me anyway and never once said "I told you so"

 

I'm so relieved to have found this forum. 

Michelle        

Hi everyone, I would like to introduce myself..

I have just turned 50. I have recently separated (6 months ago), after 23 years of marriage. I have two wonderful children - twins, boy and girl, 14 years old. The separation has been extremely difficult, with episodes of violence and sexual assault (all perpetrated by her, I hasten to add), as well as theft, damage to property, lying to police... I could go on... and it isn't over yet, in fact so far very little has been resolved.

I have been to hell and back, but have found reserves of inner strength that I never thought I had. I had increasingly severe anxiety attacks shortly after the separation, was diagnosed with anxiety, and have been on two different anti-depressants (Zoloft and Lexapro), which is my main interest in posting here.

JohnM

Hi Johno and welcome to Healingwell. I so feel your pain about the divorce, I went thru a very acrimonious divorce in the early 90's and boy do I remember how painful that was. I too had to go onto meds at that time, as all the crazy drama would make anyone depressed and anxious. I only took the meds about two years and did well after that. But then anxiety started popping in a few years ago so had to go thru therapy and now take the occasional Xanax to help for those anxious time. Remember that this too shall pass and just focus on your kids, poor babies always suffer thru divorce no matter how much we try to protect them. Things will get better, please believe that.

Again welcome to Healingwell and we look forward to hearing more from you.

Hugs
Gail *Nanners*

I'm new here. I've been reading posts and felt like this would be a good place to go. I've had panic/anxiety and a smidge of OCD since I was 16 and I'm 29 now. The anxiety id GAD and health anxiety(which is the big one) It never gets any easier for me to deal with. I seem to do this in spurts. Like I'll have it every day all day for a year and then nothing for like 2 yrs. Not sure if it has to do with hormones. I have been treated in the past with meds but some of them put me so out of it I stopped taking them because of my kids. I opted to do CBT. It helped a lot. Anyway, I've just started with the attacks again. This brought me here. I know what caused them to start back when I was 16 I just don't understand why they keep coming back. And I'm freaking out now because the ones I am having now are nothing compared to what I know they can be and I'm terrified that it'll get that bad again.