Nikki's Updates With Accident.......Part 2 PLZ Post Here...........

Dear Family,

I have put hours in to tracking the truth of this story since the day it was posted as my gut caused red flags to fly very early but in fairness to the poster, Garen, I wanted to make sure I had proof.  I have positive proof that there was no accident involving anyone in ciritical condition on the day the first post was made. I shared this info with Garen in email yesterday and asked him to tell you, the members, the truth.

I lost a son to a car accident and it has caused me great concern that someone would make up a heartwrenching story and I am so sorry that I could not stop the story from expolding. I sent out a get well card to the hospital the day of the first post. I wanted to believe.

As Nanners has said this is a sad thing and Garen/Nikki or whoever needs help and I hope they get some counseling.

As for all of the posts I have not gotten to because of the time spent over this thread I apologize as I care deeply for all and we will be stronger  and continue on supporting and caring for the members of this community.

Please accept my apology and know you are all important to me. I am in tears as whenever I remember the trauama of my son's death it saddens me..............so this has hit me hard.

Kitt

Yes Julie, sadly we believe it is so. I hope Garen/Nikki see the pain that they caused to others trying to live daily with anxiety/panic. It was a cruel hoax, that was very painful to our members. And especially painful, to our own Stkitt who lost her beloved son in a car crash.

Please know that we will do everything in our power to bring our forum back to the wonderful support group it has been for so long. We are here for you all anytime you need. Feel free to reach out to any of us as needed.

Giant Hugs,
Gail *Nanners*

Kitt

Thank you for getting to the bottom of this and im sorry to here this has brought bad memories back about your son we are here for you if you need us. Wow this really is a big shock I really did think that Nikki was in a bad crash and badly injured why would you make this story up? Garen/Nikki im feeling really hurt by all of these lies you have posted and hope that you get help.

Kitt,  thank you for getting to the bottom of this.  I like many others here had several red flags flying up all over the place over this story, but actually felt guilty for thinking that way when someone could be seriously hurt.  I honestly thought that it was because I'm to untrusting, to skeptical of others...I thought it was MY problem!  I considered e-mailing Kitt, several times with my concerns, but thought that I was an awful person for even thinking that this wasn't real!  I've been terribly upset over this whole situation, I felt awful for "Nikki", and what she was going through and would face in the future and for "Garen" and the difficulty he was going through as well.

I reached out to "Garen" personally, offered my support and this is how I get repaid.  I'm so angry and hurt by this whole situation.  I reached out to him a while before this "accident" happened through e-mail and was supporting him before and during this time.  I feel like an idiot!  Why would someone go to such great lengths?  Just to hurt us all?  I don't understand the thinking behind all of this.

Well, end of rant.  Thank you again Kitt for the time you spent figuring all of this out for us.  We are indeed lucky to have Mods who are on the ball and watching out for us.  I truly appreciate what you have done.

Garen aka Nikki! You expect people to forgive you when you totally deceived people who cared about you. You did this to yourself, so don't try to make others feel bad for you. Go get the help you need!!! You have done enough damage to us as it is. Your constant comments just add more fuel to the painful feelings we are already going thru.

I hope you get the help you need and remember this incident and NEVER do it again. You think you are hurt, what about us??????? Stkitt is deeply upset over this, because her own son was killed in a car accident. Your actions were extremely selfish and hurtful. What you are feeling now, cannot even compare to the hurt you caused our forum and members.

Please cease in your postings!

Garen/Nikki,

     I just don't know what to say or where to start rather.  I can't believe anyone would do this.  It doesn't matter how old you are or anything, just doing it in general is WRONG.  Playing on other people's sympathies like that....that actually have problems of their own....mental problems even...like myself....how dare you..!!  I cared so much that "Nikki" was in the hospital close to death...etc..  Ever since I joined this forum, I felt like I belonged to a family...so therefore I try my best to answer questions and be there for others when needed because that's what I thought a family does.  I feel like such an a** for staying in that chat room that night with you while something "bad" was happening to "Nikki".  What was that all about??  To make people look stupid??  Well, you succeeded because I feel stupid.  Also, I think that you are in need of some serious professional help.  There ARE people that care about others on here.  I am one of them.  Whenever something happens, it throws me into such a tizzy, that I start having panic attacks myself.  It doesn't have to happen to me, just has to happen to someone that I care about.  I spent about 2  hours in the emergency room that night after getting off of that chat room with you because I couldn't calm myself down even with meds.  So, because of you, I now have an ER bill coming to me. 

     I just can't believe something like this would happen.  I mean, I know stuff like this happens on the internet but I just didn't think that it would happen here.  I don't know.

 

Kitt,

     Thank you so much for spending the time to find out the facts for us.  You truely are a great person!!  I hope that this incident didn't cause anyone else any major problems.  I just tend to be very naive about stuff sometimes and try to put my faith and trust in people.  Well, again, thank you so much. 

I am through. . . Administrator has been alerted to this post I'm sure a few times, and I know he's already been advised of the situation.

Nikki/Garen- I'm so disappointed and hurt because I really thought you were my friend/s. I bought into all of this like many others on here that loved you unconditionally. . . You broke that trust and I just pray now that you get the help you need to not manipulate people like this, because that was just cruel. You knew all along how much pain the majority of us are going through. . . So, I have my family on here that are upset and I need to be there for them now.

Good luck with growing up and becoming a better person. . . That is just a part of life.

Oh, for the love of Pete ...

Mods, while I understand that you don't want this post getting out of control and turning into a bashing hurtful thing, I think it is important to allow an outlet for people to express their emotions as they find out the truth. I'm sure it is going to upset a lot of people. If this post has to be locked we should have a new one for questions/vents, etc.

AuroraRavenCrow, I hope that you can work on your anxiety and find coping skills so that in the future you don't wind up in the ER. As awful as it is you should be proud of yourself that you were able to stay in chat (even if this was a fictional person) and provide support before succoming to your own a/p. It says a lot and in future stressful situations you should remember that you were ABLE and you did hold your own. GOOD JOB!

I agree with FitzyK23 that this thread should be kept unlocked for a while because so many people were involved and they need an outlet. Locking this will only make people create new threads with questions, which will cause more confusion. Let's just wait for everyone to post here.

Brazilgirl, don't worry about this. There are plenty of people who are disturbed and it has absolutely NOTHING to do with anxiety/panic disorder. The reality is, people with panic disorder are actually some of the most stable, strong minded people in the world. If there were a fire, we would be the first ones to try and rescue people. Think about that... it's true!

This person is NOT a person who merely suffers from panic and anxiety, if they really do at all. Whoever it is has much more serious issues to deal with, and any anxiety they may have is a small thing compared to the other mental issues they may have to deal with.

Brazilgirl, panic will not hurt you, make you crazy, or give you a heart attack. The bottom line is that it's simply our "worry bone" goes into overdrive (we overreact to stress), and all the physical things you feel, racing thoughts, pounding heart, dizziness, sweaty palms, tingly arms and legs, spaciness, etc. are simply results of a bunch of adrenaline quickly being released into our bodies. Scientists can cause the EXACT SAME SYMPTOMS IN ANYONE by giving them a shot of adrenaline-like medicines. So, even though what you experience FEELS wierd and strange, it is actually a quite normal reaction to your bodies chemistry.

You are fine, and you WILL get better, as we all will, if we keep sharing with one another. We can all do this together!

Thanks guys! I've just been getting a lot better from my horrible anxiety and fears of what I have being worse than GAD/panic and now after seeing this I'm like, OMG, what if I develop this Manchausen thing and come online on a forum to hurt people? Is anyone experiencing anxiety/negative thoughts because of this story? I'm scared one day I will do something as horrible as this...