hello everyone, just a few questions

Hi to all. I know I havent been on here in a while but I was in the process of moving. WE have finally arrived and are starting to get settled. I have been having many problems lately and just needed some encouragement. My husband is in the military and we just moved to a new country which I thought would be so great and now I am totally freaking out. I have a phobia about meds and was taking Klonopin .5 mg in the morning and .5 before bed. It worked very well for me for a while and I started to gain my life back. WEll eventually I thought that it wasnt working as well about 5 months of having been on it, and was very forgetful and very spacey. I think I talked myself into thinking this medicine was not good and it was going to hurt me, and that was it i wanted off. My doctor told me that i could wean off of it in about 2 weeks which is what i did once we got over here. Well bad idea. The first two weeks were actually not that bad. I was still sleeping at night and not having alot of anxiety well for the past 2 weeks i have been living a complete nightmare. I had started to get dizzy to the point that it is debilitating for me. My hands and feet have been freezing and I have been checking my pulse probably about 50 times a day. I am sure I am causing these symptoms to keep going by feeding into it but I cant control it. I am constantly crying and pacing around the house thinking about if i should go to the ER or not. I have no quality of life right now and do not ever want to feel like this again. I have not wanted to do anything except lay down and when i do that i am so dizzy I cant even sleep. I guess my question is about the meds. Do you guys think I feel this way because of not taking them and maybe coming off to quickly and my second question would be do you think that for me to have any type of a life that is enjoyable i should just stay on the meds until I have found the proper coping skills to come off of them with my doctor monitoring me while I do so. I have a very hard time accepting that I have to take these to get through the day, but I know I am not the only one. I just want to be happy i have little ones and a husband who are also suffering because there mommy and wife is hardly able to make it through the day. I just need some support i guess.  

Thank you nanners. I am beginning to think that for me to have a good quality of life for myself and my family I am going to need to take it for a while until I can find out what causes my anxiety and how to manage it. I know I am not the only one who struggles with medicine and I know I am not the only one who takes klonopin by a long shot. I just need to suck it up i think. :)I go to the doctor on Monday just for a check up and to talk about everything.

Hey Molly,

I have been fighting against having a disorder, ( Anxiety and Depression) for twenty some years now and I finally read a post by a member the other day that struck home.

I am now learning to accept that I have anxiety and if taking meds will improve my quality of life then I will take them.  It has been a long tough battle of fighting against reality and admitting to people but now I am free of  trying to hide the truth..............this is me.  I would like to see you visit your physician too.

The wean does sound very quick and that may be causing your sx.

Take care and be good to yourself.

Kitt